Dreams

2009-07-14T21:30:00.002+08:00

needs encouragement every morning.

2007-07-24T16:34:00.000+08:00

i really love this blog,
but it's getting too big,
and i havent the time to delete all my old old old posts,
cos there's no function on blogger where i can just select
and delete.
I dont have it in my heart to delete this, so let's leave it running-
no harm what.

point is,
i have decided to get a new blog,
which will start from today on,

please relink!

thesamerainbow.blogspot.com

love much, the same old sam.

2007-07-22T15:51:00.000+08:00

Samantha is going to her sister's godma's condo now !
they are going to swim, but i cant swim ):

but nvm ! cos i can still tan yay !
yay for orange shorts.

explain to me again why i need a boyfriend?
cos having someone super duper special, means the world to meeee (:

2007-07-22T15:40:00.000+08:00

thanks clique (:
for being so supportive and all !
and thanks jess and christine for messaging me and all.
AWWW.
it makes me heart smile knowing you guys care !
(((:

you girls give a new meaning to;

girlfriends
are
forever.

p.s. SARAH SARAH SARAH !
thank you so so so much ! (:
send me the photos soon k!
<3

2007-07-22T14:05:00.000+08:00

public appearance.

went to Sarah's place !

decided to wear the black mango dress !
it's really really really pretty-ful.
and it makes me look slim, TEEHEE.
and the length is perfect, cutting too.

the pretty LBD* :)

-SIGHS ! :D

Renaissance Gold was great!
eventhough sarah and i almost went deaf, we were right in front, and the drums were really loud at the start !
the alumni band really wowed us with the Pirates of the Carribean themesong.
and the Count of Monte Cristo had a great sound.
haha, the kind you'd actually look forward to hearing before listening compre.

took photos of ian ! HAHA.
most of them are kinda blurry though :/
haha. cos you gotta move when you play the french horn whattt :)

the guys sitting behind us were talking so loudly la. TSK.
and the audience wasn't really well behaved.

nonetheless, it was definitely a night to remember.
Mr Vincent Undasan sang You'll never walk alone with immense feeling.
and he smiled a lot to the audience (:
the kind of smile, that makes you feel like you're really special, and makes you blush.
HAHA, yeaaaa.

thanks sarah for following me and all ! (((:
you made me feel more confident :D thanks !

anyways, i didnt see who i was expecting to, lol.
cabbed home with seaaaan (:

reached home at 12.30 +- am.
brought me right to the doorstep! (:

thanks dearest.

NINE DAYS IN A ROW ! :D

cos i've got you.

*little black dress.

2007-07-20T20:11:00.000+08:00

i know i know i'm a part time bimbo,
(hey, it rhymes)
but i just washed and conditioned my hair, and now it's dry, and flickable and soft and smooth and push-back-able (:
and it smells like head and shoulders conditioner (:
with a hint of sunsilk - the blue oneee (:
i want you to feel it ! HAHAHA.

if you were here right now (:

time flies (:

2007-07-20T18:50:00.000+08:00

today was pretty fab, despite the cramps.

mr ng's lesson was memorable.
he wanted top show us that you could use a solvent to see like led light ray.
so he sprayed sprayed sprayed alot of water.
the whole class was laughing (:

racial harmony day !

joanna teo sang some chinese song at assembly smth smth ai (: HAHA.
her voice is really nice.
she's cute (:
and she seems like a really sweet girl, humble and all..

mr chan was telling us to vote for her, and when he mentiond the schools of the other students who were in the semi-finals, the school sort of moaned. HAHA. at a particular school.
ijtp's general reaction, teehee (:

anyways, nothing much happened today, only 6 girls from the class, and all 6 from the clique wore an ethnic outfit (:

the brightest side of life.

we'll break the record tmr, baby ((((:

nothing'll get in our way (:
i cant wait for tmr.
and i'm not worried, or paranoid, anymoreeee !
(((:

i'm pretty-ful to you (:

2007-07-20T18:03:00.001+08:00

As promised (:

;Marriage

The dim light softly touched the edges of the booklet, making it seem as ithough it were glowing. The church bells on the mass booklet seemed so fitting, as were the flowers which crowned my head in the cover photo of my husband and I. The two ornate letter ‘S’s seemed so perfectly curved and were simply beautiful. I sat by my bedside, pondering upon the events of the day which had flown by so swiftly. Weddings are all about white lace, long gowns, splendid flower arrangements and chiming church bells. All weddings are rather similar, why did mine feel so different?

It was slightly more than twelve hours ago, when I found myself sitting on an elevated chair, waiting in silent reflection as the stylist applied layers of powder on my face. As she painted the colours on my face, as if I were a porcelain doll, I wondered to myself why I was getting married. It was a question to which an answer seemed obvious, and yet, it was not as easy as it sounded. Beneath all the hours spent planning on material matters – the lunch reception, wedding dinner, colour scheme and the bride’s outfits were but a few, my heart always sought to remind me about the man whom I cared about so dearly. Marriage would join me to my husband, the ultimate proof of our love for each other. To me, it could not come later.

As I sat in the elongated Mercedes-Benz, I felt the air-conditioning brush gently across my ear, whispering soothing words to me. It was quite a long way to church, and I found my hands firmly clasped together throughout the ride, praying to God to bless my wedding day and my marriage. I stared at my ring finger momentarily, imagining the ring that would very soon be there. The ring would be unending, as I hoped my marriage to be. Marriage included making sacrifices, was I ready? I did not doubt the amount of commitment I was ready to give and yet, butterflies flew to my stomach at the thought. The silvery organza veil felt rough as it brushed against my skin, and my ivory wedding gown had a long trail that was left strewn messily about the earlier cleaned car mat. The car soon came to a stop, and the door was opened for me. I smiled to myself, as I stood up and came out of the car, with newfound confidence growing within me.

The elegant turquoise and silver ribbons, that were entwined around the grey railings leading up to the main church were a welcoming sight. The colour turquoise was a very special colour to me, and it had always been. If my dreams were a single colour, they would have been turquoise. That distinctive colour was rare to find, and even rarer to find in the specific shade that I wanted. It was therefore not surprising that the colour, turquoise somehow made my wedding feel more special. An hour at the wedding mass flew by so quickly and before I knew it, I found myself strolling back down the aisle in church, with my husband by my side. The notes of the wedding march streamed from the choir loft above, like the music of the angels up above. I smiled upon many jubilant faced, and glanced at many lips mouthing congratulations. I never failed to notice the antique wooden pews which were adorned with white roses and silver ribbon, perfectly what I had imagined as an adult. This day was special to me, it was not merely my imagination turned to reality, but the day when I would bind myself to another.

For months, I had dreamed of an elaborate wedding and a church filled with familiar faces. It touched my heart that night, after the wedding dinner, when I asked my husband if our wedding had been the one he had wished for, and he said all he wished for was a wedding that would make me his wife. There was no way more fitting than this, to start our marriage. Our wedding was merely the start of our marriage. Marriage is an experience filled with equal independence, mutual dependence and a reciprocal obligation. Marriage restores the sight to love, and it is the acknowledgement of the special connection one has with another being. As I cleansed the make-up off my face that night, I realized that our wedding was so special not because of the lovely decoration, scrumptious dinner or even the turquoise ribbons. I realized that our wedding was special for the quiet fact that it was not merely a wedding;
it was a marriage.

Samantha Branson.
Sec 4/3

and for the record,
i am not obsessed.

2007-07-20T17:56:00.000+08:00

i've seen this before (:

2007-07-19T20:34:00.000+08:00

todaaaay !

cant really rmb what happened today actually.
oh, you know my marriage essay ?
i got it back ytd along with the expository essay on whether parents should go to work, while their children are still young.

a disappointing 24 upon 30 for both.
i was quite displeased that i got the same mark for both my expository essay and descriptive essays when descriptive is my strength.
mrs alex said i needed to concentrate on the plot, and my description was good (:

i'll post it when i get onto the other comp, cos it's not typed here (:

when i'm sitting on the steps,
i know i'll never forget.

tmr'll be seven days in a row !
and saturday will be eight days in a row (:

(: record ! :D

hahaha.

i'm a happy girl.

OH AND ON A RANDOM NOTE,

the quote of the week, by sarah nat is

"Big boys dont cry."

2007-07-18T22:30:00.000+08:00

Can you find yourself in these photos, baby?
TEEHEEEEE (:

those 4am phone calls (:

i'll read you a bedtime story,
hold your hand
and stay by your side till you reach dreamland tonight kays.
and i'll be waiting thereeee dear-
on a pink cloud (:

if dreams were a single colour, they'd be turquoise.

2007-07-18T21:25:00.000+08:00

looking good.
170707

you've got me thinking of the laugh-kiss cute-ness.

Made a few new discoveries today.
the NE Quiz was funny !
HAHA, some of the options were really ridiculous..

assembly wasn't good.
let's just say we'd have been better off using the period for physics,
instead of staying back after assembly.
well, the sec three's found it amusing.
it was amusing that they found it amusing.
the sarcasm was majorly, too much.
and yea.
it wasn't a good delivery, despite the notable effort.
it was, nevermind.
we laughed alot, haha.

yea.

anyways, moving on.
art was productive (:
bus home and before i reached home was productive tooo (:

i'm looking forward to Renaissance on saturday, and yet i'm not.
for reasons you can guess, and reasons the clique'll know.
(:
thanks christine (:
what you said was sweeeet (:

and baby,
thanks for your reassurance. ifluuuuuu :D

totally awww.

it's for reasons only we both know (:
you're so sweet.

2007-07-17T21:48:00.000+08:00

Just back from watching Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.
i expected disappointment, but i was impressed.

yes, they did cut out a whole lot of good parts from the book.
yes, the skipped a lot of links and compromised with other scenes.
yes, the kiss wasn't really all that.
yes, cho's character was really restricted, making her seem minutely pathetic.
yes, yes, yes and yes.

nonetheless, i found the movie particularly strong.
It created strong empathy !
personally, at least.
and it was good.

the feeling was so there.
some parts were really strong moments,
like when sirius was talking to harry in the family tree room, and yea !
just clicked with me emotionally.

so i found it really good.
it was really emotionally deep and yea omg.
i practically cried my eyes out, best movie i've seen in the year.

the environment which David Yates created compensated for all that the movie lacked.
in my opinion, it was a fare better visual then previously created.
BECAUSEEE!
-the death eaters were so much better
-the filming was good throughout
-the scenes in the room of requirement were fab
-comic releif was well balanced by filch
-laughter fulfilled with fred and george
-suspense throughout, interesting characters
(e.g. the gross Bellatrix who killed sirius >:(, nymphadora tonks etc)
-music that complimented.

my favourite parts are among
-the scenes in the room of requirement, with the exception of the kiss
-the parts with harry and sirius
-the last action part !

enough said;

watch it please.

my kind of special is spelt with four letters, not seven (:

2007-07-15T14:12:00.001+08:00

Sunday is slack day (:
woke up at 4am, cos i was thirsty.
took an hour for me to get back to bed.
i woke up to two sweeeet messages (:
replied.

at eight forty, i woke up to three lovely messages (:

went back to sleepy sleep, then went downstairs for prata breakfast ! YAY (:

followed the family to the market (like i had a choice...)
helped mummy get vegtables, and i saw the butcher guy with this hook that had like pig heads hooked by the ear la ! LIKE, EW !

felt the sudden urge to get flowers ! (:
my favourite flower EVER EVER EVER, it the ginger flower (:

aunty jenny, the florist gave me a free stalk :D
came home, and got to drawing it straightaway.

sat on the same chair, and looked at the same colours for three hours.
quite happy with the finished product, but not entirely with the leaf la, the colours a bit off but oh wells ! (:

all the colours which i used !

the finished prettyful flower (:

CAN PASS ?

<333

2007-07-14T21:54:00.000+08:00

this is everything.

today was a fab day (:
two weeks never seemed longer, but not anymore (:
lovely time (:
yay for sushi (:
yay for you (:
yay for me (:
and yay yay yay for us and all we share (:

42779084733066684702229 (:

2007-07-12T20:51:00.000+08:00

disclaimer: this is a very whiny post. and the writer will not be held responsible for any inconveniences or negative consequences which may result from you, the one who's like reading my blog now, reading this post.

come what may is such a pretty song.
and the sky today was really pretty.

and i'm feeling like sucha bimbo now.
today, audrey's group put a piece of paper under the visualizer.
and i was like,

Why is the visualiser so green?

HEH, it took me three seconds to realise that it was green paper la omg.

i'm still very annoyed in a bimbo way that blogger doesnt have pink!
it fails to satisfy a girl's random outburst of bimbotic-ness.
HEH.

anyways, stayed back till 7.10 for art today.
WAH, RECORD.
i was so flipping tired.
ONE CLOUD on the smooth wall, took me about three hours.
i had to use nippon white paint, water, blue paint, three sponges.
my hands were all painty.
the paint hardened on my hands about three times, so i had a really thick layer on my hand.
and i cant leave pain too long on my skin- cos i'll get a rash, so it was highly annoying (in the normal sense, not bimbo sense)
that i had to keep rinsing it off.
someone please remind me to geet a pail of water, so i dont have to walk to the toilet each time my hands get dry.

i was feeding mosquitos too.
which was bad.
given the dengue thing.

and there was this one annoying fly that refused to leave my space !
miss low said it liked me.

took me half an hour plus to wash up and all. and it's so troublesome that i'm below cos i have to carry -
a wooden stool
the paint tray
two small sponges
one big sponge
my handphone (without getting it painty)
my watch (without getting it painty)
my wallet (without getting it painty)
the heavy still very full blue harmony paint can.
(FIVE LITRES)
the heavy still quite full white paint can
(SEVEN LITRES)

Considering the fact that i managed to carry all of the above the blue harmony paint can, in one trip up two flights of steps, i think my muscles are gonna be aching. esp the bone before my elbow where i hung the not-exactly-light wooden stool.

aaand.
my legs had paint too.
seeing as how there's no hose in the art block.
and seeing as how i'm not gonna walk all the way to the toilet were there are lower taps - which is like near the school gate,
i went home with paint on my legs.

and in my nails.
gross.

I was so hungry, hot, sweaty, stinky, wet, painty and all.
sorry fellow passengers on the bus.

here ends my whine-worthy late afternoon.

on a lighter note -
yes, there is a lighter note !
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN MAG (:

the recess bunch surprised her with a nice heart shaped chocolate cake from Chocsz.
it was super yummy.
and oh so very chocolate-y.
thanks for getting the cake sarah !

mag had a nice surprise ! (((:
we were happy !
we gave her a card too ! (: A BIG ONE (:
it was brown and yellow and pink and white.
PRETTY-FUL.

we were so full.

it was to our hilarious horror, that straight away after recess, miss teo came in, and said,
GOOD MORNING GIRLS!
WE'RE HAVING PE NOW.

OMG. -screams.

we just ate so much !
HAHAHA.
we didnt have pe in the end !
miss teo was so funny !
i think i never laughed so much during a class !
TEEHEE.

next period was maths, which we had five periods of in the entire day, that's like fifty percent our periods la.
mr teh sort of conducted us while we sang for mag !
it was so funnnnnny ! (:
HAHAHA (:

oh oh oh, and before recess, we had the best geog lesson the whole year !
(:
mrs kunna was so happy, i've never seen her smile so much.
she said we were good !
AWWW.
and she was so funny, in a cute way la.
HAHAHA, she was like, nervous and all cos mrs fam was going to watch her teach and evaluate her.

before class she was like asking me to remind her stuff, and i was like okay ! i'll wave my pink highlighter !

haha, mrs fam was pleased with our presentation, which wasn't really that much planned, we did it in ten mins with prior research.
she went to the staff room to get her camera !
and started taking photos!
it was funny ! (((:

we felt like we were in a photoshoot la, teehee.
funny (:

and it was an unusual geography lesson.

the colour paper she gave us was prettier than normal white paper ! (:

and yea, it was fun.
mrs kunna was happy with us, she let us off for recess like five minutes earlier yay.

today wasnt half bad, thanks to geog lesson, mag's birthday surprise, the funny convo we had with miss teo during the pe period, and the completion of my one cloud.

i'm a happy girl.
and very very very tired.

iflu (:

2007-07-11T21:40:00.000+08:00

OH OH OH TAKE THIS TEST PLEASE (:

CLICK HERE !

2007-07-11T20:32:00.000+08:00

today was kinda a boring day..
Sarah and Shirin weren't around half the day, which pretty much made it boring without them!

aha, su, shirin and jannah drew me this roller coaster thing (:
i'll post it when my camera has battery ! (sorry guys)

had a really lame day !
haha, i love fourthree.

the lesson on relative velocity turned out pretty productive cos i managed to understand what was going on, and managed to do the questions mr teh gave, without much trouble..

went for art afterwords, and managed to paint clouds along the top part of my wall, which leaves me with a lot more to do.
and the recent count of pillows which are sewn, decorated, stuffed and sewn close is 20 !
which leaves me with about thirty more.
OMG.
i need like 8m times 3 more cloth.

get sewing, samantha.

and i tried using cotton stuffing yesterday, wah. a whole lot of it ended up being stuck on my t-shirt.
and it was really stinky too, so yea.
decided not to use it in the end.

anyways, i'm really tired today, must be the relative velocity, haha, and painting.
my eyes're closing la.

i'm a sleepy girl (:

i dont mean to forget things really la.

just so you know baby, i very well mean what i say when i say
i love you.
'unlike me'?
that's the one thing i'll make sure i'll never contradict.

iloveyoutoo.

2007-07-10T17:00:00.000+08:00

Come What May

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I'm loving you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Oh, come what may, come what may
I will love you, I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

i love this song.

2007-07-10T16:26:00.000+08:00

today.

wasnt really much.
woke up sleepy, left school sleepy.
had everything stuck in my head practically every period.
stayed in for recess as usual.
had temperature taking.
doodled on the pretty colourful paper that amanda gave us - there was turquoise !
yay (:

and i killed a cockroach that was outside my house last night ! i sprayedddd it (:
haha, yup.

history calls (:

We've only just begun to live,
White lace and promises
A kiss for luck and we're on our way.
And yes, We've just begun.

Before the rising sun we fly,
So many roads to choose
We start our walking and learn to run.
And yes, We've just begun.

Sharing horizons that are new to us,
Watching the signs along the way,
Talking it over just the two of us,
Working together day to day
Together.

And when the evening comes we smile,
So much of life ahead
We'll find a place where there's room to grow,
And yes, We've just begun.

just like me, they long to be;
close to you.

2007-07-09T17:40:00.000+08:00

Whatever comes our way, we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

Everything - Michael Buble.

You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And You're the perfect thing to say.

And you play your card, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
Cause you're my everything.
yeah, yeah

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

2007-07-09T15:45:00.000+08:00

Because i feel a sudden urge to brush up on my descriptive, i'll be writing an essay now (:
descriptive is destressing.
well, to me at least.
(((:
oh and from the picture above, you prolly would've guess that the topic is Marriage (:

random,
i really love this photo of Audrey and Mark..
was looking at their wedding photos for inspiration.

2007-07-09T15:13:00.000+08:00

An Unlucky Day

so my hand phone line is apparently cut,
WTH LA.

they shouldnt cut it before informing me.
realised it to my horror.
AH :/

so yea, just so you know, i cant receive any messages, or get any calls at the moment.
call my home if its anything.

LATEST !
it's fixed, heh.

it's so effy ):
miss you, <3.

2007-07-08T21:13:00.000+08:00

more than words.

(: oh so very much has changed (:
and i'm happy, you're happy, we're happy.

cus even in one crowded hour, you're always able to make the moments last a lifetime.

2007-07-08T20:57:00.000+08:00

choir outing ! yay for red (:

at angie's wedding, dont we look short here !
cass' bf la. haha.

better (: the buffet at Nat and Cass' cousin's wedding was fab.

before angie's wedding mass (:

the sops in dresses (:
loves.

2007-07-08T17:00:00.000+08:00

oh, and i changed some more stuff again (:
the colours match more now, and thry're softer..
i cant get the links colour to change thoughhhh :/

nevermind !

2007-07-08T13:37:00.000+08:00

it's the sunday after the 7th, yay (:
we're one day closer to grad night.
one day closer to prelims, and o levels, and one day closer to leaving ij.
also, one day closer to christmas and birthdays and dates i'm sure i'll remember many days from now.
noneless, ah, we're losing time.
what's new?
i've been losing time for sixteen years, five months, fifteen days, 13 hours, 50 mins and 36 secs.

managed to complete half my load of maths, which is unusually productive for me on a sunday.
i woke up at the very piggish hour of 11 (:
teehee.
had three really sweet messages to read and one very funny, oink-y message (:
so generally, i've had a really really bright morning (:

checked my friendster, and read this, and found myself smiling.
and i realised i smile to myself alot nowadays (:
-sighs dreamily.

ELEVEN SIGNS THAT SHOW YOU LIKE SOMEONE.

TWELVE:
You walk really slow when you're with
them.

ELEVEN:
You feel shy whenever they're around.

TEN:
You smile when you hear their voice.

NINE:
When you look at them, you can't see
the other people around you, you just
see him/her.

EIGHT:
They're all you think about.

SIX:
You realize you're always smiling when
you're looking at them.

FIVE:
You have all your mind on them.

FOUR:
You would do anything for them, just
to see them.

THREE:
While reading this, there was one
person on your mind this whole time.

TWO:
ou were so busy thinking about that
person, you didnt notice number seven
was missing

ONE:
You just scrolled up to check & are
now silently laughing at yourself.

anyways!
we went to fish&co at the glass house for daddy's birthday dinner.
yay for fish&co, yummy.

i ate a whole lotta stuff, which KINDA justifies my pig tendencies.
haha, that's NOT an understatement!
(:

caesar salad with smoke salmon, some of tabitha's fish and chips, some more fish and chips.
four prawns, three rings of sotong, some butter rice, a few fries, on third a grilled fish and one glass of passion fruit drink (:

teehee.
i was freezing to death, cos the air-con draft ws blowing RIGHT at me.
i shifted to zachary's place half way through dinner, cos i absolutely couldn't take the cold..

there were about five people celebrating their birthdays !
the waiters and waitresses were really nice and happy (:
and the service was pleasing.

my brother wants to be Zorro.

they made daddy stand on a chair and all.
teehee.
it was rather hilarious.
five people did it consecutively.
the table next to us was ____.
they were chasing their friend around the place, making a total clown of themselves.
they were prolly high. haha. yeaaaa.
the chocolate fudge thing which mummy ordered for daddy was superly yummy !
it was nice and warm and chocolately, and fudge, and the ice-cream totally complimented the chocolate tast.
YUMMY (: with a capital Y.

we took a very crowded train home, and had coffee cake (:
got tucked it really well, and dozed off soon after (:

well, my lunch calls now (:
yummy nasi lemak.

check back later might update this post (:
have a good Sunday !
♥♥♥♥

2007-07-07T12:27:00.000+08:00

saturday's here !

today's daddy's birthday!
and it's triple seven!
mag and tessa and mad and shirin were having a discussion in class about getting married on a triple same number date and we concluded that mag has to get married on like 12 12 12 which is like, in five years.
heh, i told her to like go to ROM, book the date, and tell the person there that she'd fill in her husband's name later, hurr hurr ! (:

it was raining this morning, stayed in bad, haha.
didnt sleep really well last night,
i've got this paranoia, heh.
you know the cockroach thing !
YEAAAAH.

haha, yup.
other than that, i'm not really sure what the plans for the rest of the day are yet.
sean wont be around today, awwww :/

oh wells !
enjoy the song (:
cheers.

and i've got rihanna's umbrella stuck in my head.

When the sun shines
We'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
That I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella

2007-07-06T16:26:00.000+08:00

changed the skin a little.
it's soft pink and turquoise (:
haha, like you cant see.
and i've liked this song for the longest time (:

daddy's taking us out for dinner tonight !

i'm so happy.
i guess the good thing bout being superly sad, is from there, you can only be happier (:

i'm counting down till sunday dear.
you've got my care (:

2007-07-06T11:36:00.000+08:00

love you.

(a picture speaks a thousand words.
this is worth ten thousand and two words not counting what's in this bracket :] )

2007-07-06T11:07:00.000+08:00

you're the other half of the rainbow baby.

i'm wishing so badly that you were here.
i miss you.
and i love you.

2007-07-06T10:39:00.000+08:00

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

i'm home early.
woke up this morning feeling terrible.
something was missing in me.

felt sick. threw up.
okay, so maybe doing 100 sit-ups in 50 secs times three wasn't such a good idea.
and eating dinner straight after that.

wanted to go to school for the ss test, cos i studied.
walked to the bus stop. felt so sick.
came back home, used the toilet, left again.
it was seven by the time.
so i cabbed down to school.
eight bucks la.

first period- SS.
mrs tan said she had asked another class to pass us news that the test was postponed to next friday.
wasted eight bucks, time, walking energy, stayed up last night to study, so i wasted alot of things.
but the lesson was good, so yea.
stayed for english.
thanks jess and amanda, for being really sweet.

i think you need some time
by yourself
without anybody else
you just need to unwind
in your time machine

you need to go faraway
a fews years back'd be okay
you just need to unwind
in your time machine.

thanks jess for the post-it (:
you made me smile, even if it was only for awhile.

and i'm smiling now.

2007-07-05T21:31:00.001+08:00

storms make trees take deeper roots.

2007-07-04T21:11:00.000+08:00

think about this.

The two pictures're taken from a powerpoint that i received (:
it got me thinking.

anyways, good news ! (:

two of my prints've been selected for the bi-annual aep exhibition this year (:
at NAFA galleries 1 & 2.
two photographs which were taken by me are also on display (:

my coursework's coming along well too (:
got about twenty pillows sewn.
gotta painfully do the designs on them, then stuff them, then sew each one painfully close, then i'm done. with twenty.
which leaves me another twenty three, cos i've done seven completely, and my target is fifty.

HO BOY.

Because this song is pretty, hear it (:

All good things come to an end by Nelly Furtado

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
We missed everything daydreaming

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end

Travelling I always stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day until the feeling went away
And the clouds were dropping and the...
The rain forgot how to bring salvation
The dogs were whistling a new tune barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die

haha, and you know what,
i'm gonna prove it wrong.

and i'm not a bimbo la please.
i can do maths.
and last night, i picked up a dead cockroach !
without screaming or whining.
and when i first saw it alove, before tabitha killed it, i didnt scream, i just watched it for awhile, teehee.

samantha's very busy.

leave a message after the beep.

beep (:

That greeeeen ! (:

NOW, art pillow stuffing calls ! at eleven pm, heh. NIGHTS, WORLD!

2007-07-02T14:31:00.000+08:00

MY NEW POSTS are very very long !

sorry !
i'm gonna try and break the monotony by adding pictures so, heads up (:

2007-07-02T14:15:00.000+08:00

oh two oh seven oh seven.

I'm typing out this post on notepad in advance again,
cos the MIO man came to fix our modem that day, but didnt do it properly!
so it still doesnt work.

annoyinggggg with a capital A !

so i'm spending my youth day holiday at home.
waiting for the guy to come and fix it.
UGH !

and yeaaaa !
):
HO WELLS.

aaand aha.
i'm playing all the old love-y songs again.

yeaaaaaaa.
i spent the evening ytd before dinner at the library.
borrowed a book titled, Love adds a little chocolate.
It's full of really sweet and inspiring stories (:
yeaaa.
but they cant beat the sequel to The Dreamcatcher's Child.
that book made me cry.

aaanyways, today feels so draggyyy.
BLEAAAH.

the L word

let's look at the whole, why does one look for love when one is aware of the hurt and all question again.

even if you've read this before in one of my posts long agooo, reinforcement doesnt hurt (:

the answer?
because the love outshines all else, as it should.
no one goes into a relationship, looking for hurt and anger.
it just happens.

getting into a relationship, means one acknowledges that she/he is susceptible to hurt.
one still looks for love, because love completes.

when one looks for love, he/she looks for the joy found in it.
not the hurt that could potentially arise.
and still, with knowledge of that, one gets into a r/s.

funny isnt it?

and a little ironic, sadly.

i'm not expert in this, but yea, i'm just thinking.
what i think it to be at least.

well, when one's in a relationship, it's about discovering yourself in another.
it's like seeing the other side of a coin. the side you cant see when you're holding a coin up.
the side you come to know through first seeing it reflected from outside yourself.
and when that happens, you know, you just need the other side.

being in a relationship isnt for support.
imagine yourself as being a half-filled bottle.
looking for someone else who's a filled bottle in order to complete yourself would leave the other half half-filled.
which shows that relationships are for inter-dependence.

this means that compromising is something important in a r/s.
one cant always be making the choices, and one cant always be following the decisions in silence.
a relationship should seek emotional balance.
neither party should be hurting herself/himself for the other.
someone told once told me, sacrficing yourself for your other half just isnt healthy.
and you arent going to be happy as much as you tell yourself you are, and that's the sad thing.

on the brighter side, love is a celebration of our humanness, not our perfection.
love is moving forward in mututal growth.
love puts responsibilty where it belongs,
love is sharing with each other.
love simplifies your life, not complicates it.
loving is an ebb and flow.
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love is sometimes, sacrfice.

A father tried to teach his seven-year-old daughter the meaning of sacrifice. HE explained that the finest gift a person can give is some cherished possesion, one that the person values very much.
On his birthday, the father found pinned to his coat a large sheet of paper on which his daughter had laboriously printed with red crayon: "you are my faverit Daddy and i luv you heeps. My present to you is what i likes best. It is in your poket."
In his pocket he found a strawberry lollipop that he had given her a week before. It hadnt been licked once.

isnt that sweet?

sighs dreamily.

anyways, love is amazing.

i wouldnt be here if it wasnt for love.
and hey, neither would you.

so, love.

i came across this poem,
--
Your life will be richer-If.

Your life will be richer is on this day, you make an effort to:
Mend a quarrel.
Searh for a forgotten friend.
Dismiss a suspicion and replace it with trust.
Write a letter to someone who misses you.
Encourage someone who has lost faith.
Keep a promise.
Forget an old grudge.
Examine your demands on others, and vow to reduce them.
Fight for a principle.
Express your gratitude.
Overcome and olf fear.
Take two minutes to appreciate the beauty of nature.
Tell someone you love them.
Tell them again.
And again.
And again.

obligation can pour a glass of milk, but quite often love adds a little chocolate.

As Elbert Hubbard said,
The love we give away is the only love we keep.

2007-06-30T14:17:00.000+08:00

CATCH THE HINTS.

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i'm baaaack !
we've finally fixed the internet connection with a new modem.
and frankly. i couldn't be happier.

here's when the keburukan internet comes in, heh.

anyways, i cant possibly type bout all that has happened to me since i last updated, that was a damn long time ago.
i'll just stick to highlights (:
(oh oh, i've divided this post into sections. so yeah (: look out for headings! -they're underlined)

on second thoughts. i'm too lazy too lazy to look back.
oh wait, jared's party!
went there, got lost.
ended up in ubi avenue industrial estate.
took us a few construction material shops to realise that we were on the wrong bus. teehee.
tracked back, and found jared's house.
took us bout twenty mins (:

when we reached his block, he was watching us from outside his maisonette.
HAHAHA, OMG.

reached, ate for awhile then headed up to jared's room.
debbie was there (:
thea brought us girls to her room where we played the frog game (:
se's really cute (:
wanted to go back to jared's room, but thea kept dragging me (:
SO CUTE.

yea (:
left after dinner, and cabbed back to bishan mmhmm (:
was sleepy !
yeaaa (:

I'll start with the new week (:
i stayed back EVERY single daaaaay.

amazing, no?

managed to paint the inside of my space blueeeee.
so there's the clouds left, pillows left- lots of pillows, and the whole outside space.
SHUCKS.
talk about having a lot to do.

anyways, mrs alex gave us our june test compre back-- turns out it was the sji mye 07 paper.
WHOAH.

it got a lot of rather stunned expressions from the class in general.
it just wowed me.
our mye paper for eng was like, a major killer la.
sheesh.

moving on, my o level malay oral exam is overrrrr !
i got COURTESY.
then they asked me what courtesy means,
whether i think singaporeans are courteous
and whether it'd be better if an individual was courteous or good-looking.

it was quite manageable.
the examiners were really happy happy and smiley.
which helped the nervouseness cool down, even though i was still wondering what colour the butterflies in my stomach were.

"If you havent dont any of your homework, it's alright. Just start
studying."

the first three days of the week were fab (:
no need to guess why (((: hahaha.

other than that, the start of semester 2 and term 3 was good.
been studying every night.
hopefully it pays off !

we've started Industries for geog.
it's a rather dry chapter to me.
my friends were giving each other the omg-i'm-gonna-fall-asleep look.
and half the time our class doesnt fall asleep cos of the noise!
haha, NOISE.
the noise generated in our class during lessons is amazing.
it might not be comparable, but whoahhh.
-looks at miss chilli padi.
-turns beihnd the aisle and looks at the second two pairs of desks.
HAHA, whoaaaaah.

partnering sarah, and having Rose next to me on the left, and jess two seats away has been fun (:
Here's a breakdown of class boredom

A represents the time spent talking to each other.
B represents the time spent drawing in each others school diaries, writing random song lyrics and sticking retarded post its all over.
and C is the time we spend preparing for the next lesson. this includes, hw touching up (HAHA, TOUCHING UP), getting books from our locker etc.

yea, roughly la, and not thoroughly accurate.
it's not like i count the time every day for an entire week, then average it. put it over the amount of class time and mulitiply it by a hundred to get the percentage.
i'm not that free.

i'm typing this before tmr, in advance, so i can just copy paste the whole thing.
yeayea. i'm deprived and kiasu.

i've got Runaway by the Corrs and the Cranberries. in my heaaaaad.
it's sucha nice old song.

say it's true, there's nothing like me and you.
i'm not alone..
tell me you feel it too.

and i would runaway.
i would runaway, yeah yeah.
i would runaway,
i would runaway with you.

cos i've fallen in looooove with you.
no, i'm never, never gonna stop falling in love with you.

another song i really like from my dad's music list is COME AWAY WITH ME !
i really like that song yup !

oh oh oh.
a whole new world's playing (:
AW.

now i'm in a whole new world with you

SHINY BLACK HEELS

YOUTH DAY CELEBRATIONS TODAY !

we had the CAT HIGH chinese orchestra and wushu guys perform.
so random !
haha.

the teachers dedicated Trust his heart to us.
which was sweet.

we got a pretty bookmark from the school, and a really cute magnetic apple shaped paperclip holder.
so cute la.
and really thoughtful.

the cheerleaders performed too.

then we had an hour long recess.
it was crazy though, cos all four levels was down in the canteen at the same time.
the stall queues are already as long as HALF THE CANTEEN when it's my usual recess !
and that's only two levels.
can you imagine, the whole school
not to mention the noise level!
and heat !

stayed up for recess with sarah, jess, amanda, su !
had retarded convos.
HAIYOOOO.

started a convo bout the girls in bikinis who do car washes, cos i took out my car wash sponge which i'm gonna use to..
PAINT CLOUDS LA.

TSK JESSICAAAAA.
haha.

we then moved on to the usual school diary drawing!
haha.
pretty soon it was time for english!
expository essay for homework!

chem, for me was spent painting.
after that, headed to comp lab 4 for hist.
i had a major headache.
i think from inhaling the paint smell.
but yeahhh.

stayed in the council room cos i felt awful..
but not before leaving to get SMOOTHIEEEE!
strawberry banana. MMMMMMMM.

Dont wake me up from my fairytale dream.

i'm listening to all the the songs from my daddy's file!
hmm,here're a few random phrases (: see if you know the songs (:

1. We've only just begun, to live. White lace and promises.
2. I could stay awake just to hear you breathing, watch you smile while you're sleeping ... Cos even when i dream of you, the sweetest dream would never do- I'd still miss you babe.
3. And too many moonlight kisses, seem to cool in the warmth of the sun.
4. I hear the laughter, i taste the tears. but i cant get near you now.
5. I knew i loved you before i met you, I think i dreamed you into life.
6. I wanna wake up with the rain falling on the tin roof, while i'm safe back in your arms, so all i ask is for you, to some away with me, in the night.
7. Every place i go, i'll think of you, every song i sing, i'll sing for you. when i come back, i'll wear your wedding ring.

old songs somehow seem more meaningful.

Maybe it's intuition, some things you just dont question.
Look in your I see my future in an instant and there it goes,
i think i found my bestfriend.

anyways, after amanda was done with her oral, and su anne was with her prac, the whole original clique headed to Subway for lunch (((:
we talked about the youth day concert.
HAHAHAHA.
you dont wanna know..

there's harry potter one, part two later.
i'm prolly gonna slack tonight, heh.
I've been so dried out.
Like a wet towel, wrung till it's dry.
and still left in the sun.
YEAAAAA.

WAH, this post is loooong !
and ah !
JONATHAN RHYS MEYERS IS HOT.

majorly la.

haha, HOT.
reminds me of assembly this morning !
tsk, jess accredited the heat i was feeling to her HOTNESS.
haha.

:D

oh, i know this post is getting jumpy and messy and so not sequential, but sorry !

mass today was good.
it was very meaningful to hear mrs lee and mrs matthews read during the mass.
heir participation was very dont know how to say la.
but it kinda gave me a new found respect for mrs lee.
(i cant really explain why..)
Mrs Lee, btw had a pair of gorgeous black super high shiny kitten-heel pumps.
amanda and i were WOW-ing.
DAMN NICE LA.

i'm reintroducing randomness to this blog !

i think pink umbrellas on a dull rainy day are really bright and funny !
teehee.

ugh, i needa lose tummy fat.
and do more crunches, yay.

I SPELL LOVE A DIFFERENT WAY.

-sighs dreamily.

i'll end here and leave you readers wondering, or not.

we'll end our fairytale by writing a book one day faraway from now.
all our book needs is two words.

(((:
<333>i could stay lost in this moment forever.
every moment spent with you, is a moment i treasure.

2007-06-18T14:27:00.000+08:00

three posts in a day!
(:

i've got homework to do, shucks!

i'm going i'm going !

heads up for a week of work. oh joy !
gonna take zac to get his hair ct and j8 after this.
then i'm prolly get mine cut.
IF mummy lets me.
it's so long now.
i like long layers though.
so i'm prolly just gonna get it trimmed, and relayered. yay!

READ THIS PLEASE!
if anyone feels like doing homework, give me a call (:
i've got a ready supply of homework to be done !

2007-06-18T13:33:00.000+08:00

i realised i smiled thirteen times in the orange section of my previous post.

teehee. ((((((((:

THAT'S ALOT OF TIMES.

anyways!
i justttt got back from lunch ! (:
mmhmmm !

i'm thinking happy thoughts.
dont blame me for smiling dreamily.
heh.

oh, and btw,
the inner bimbo in me finds it utterly annoying that the colour bar thing in blogspot so doesnt have pink!
like, how sad is that !

NO PINK !

i have to substitute purple for bimbo moments then.
SHEEEEESH !
and purple has a heaven lot more blue than pink !
and blue is so not a bimbo colour.

OKAAAY,

bimbo out.

the song to sing.

2007-06-18T10:54:00.000+08:00

hey hey (: i'm baaaack.

haha, blogging once a week, should technically give me more to blog about, but nuh-uh.
not really, well, i've been blogging at home and saving it in my thumbdrive, which, isn't with me now.
so heh!

i'll blog about what happened since, uhhhh, SATURDAY !
on friday i sent my phone to the Nokia Care Centre at wheeeeelock, so now the on-off button works !
went to Borders' and got some stuff before heading to Chinatown (: managed to get all the materials i needed YAY! and they were all alooooot cheaper than at Spotlight (:

the next day ! SATURDAY !
angie's wedding !
woke up early ! and headed to church to sing for her wedding !
so pretty pretty (:

ten more years

Headed to town with sean after the reception (: shopped at WISMA, and went to Starbucks for our caramel frap (:
it was raining !
we squeezed under my small lilac umbrella, and aha,
the back of my dress still got all wet !
so when we went into Starbucks it was so cold !

yea, got warm again after awhile though (:

((((:
haha, you'll always find me smiling (:

then went to get my phoneeeee (:
shopped somemore at WISMA (:
then headed to PS (:

said bye bye to seaaaan (:
and met the councillors for yummy dinner at Swensen's (:

joy and i had smiling competitions, teehee.
i know i know, i'm retarded YES!
oh oh oh!
and i saw sandra at swensens too (: i said HIII (:

AFTER THAT I went baaaaack to wisma to meet him and change his wallet (:
AND
headed home after that (:
not before being spotted on the traaaain.

(:

i think bridges are romantic, do you?

PRETTY PICTUREEEEE !
i like like the pink balloons so much !
haha, randoooom!

anyways!

FATHERS DAY !
woke up early early, despite having a rough cockroach night,
UGH, dont ask.

headed to the Cathedral of the Good Shepherd for mass.
which lasted one and a half hours, shucks, i think the priest gave the homily like he was at a seminar, WHOOPS.

left for the heeren and had a long lunch at the village.
caesar salad !
crepe with maple walnut ice-cream (:

i was feeling sick, shucks, how unlucky can i get? VERY.
anyways, we said byebye to the cousins and all, and left for plaza sing.

a certain someone was PMS-ing on quite a major scale.
i was at ps for three days in a row !
trying to convince me to go there again to shop is like, going shopping at Raffles City at 3 in the morning when all the shops're closed!

so i left for Sembawang park, where the choir outing was!

got lost at YISHUN MRT for a so frickin sian forty minutes, before cabbing over to Sembawang Park.
Joined RACING CARS !
(((:

as you can tell, we were a bunch of red blood cells ! haha.
and we took quite a few retarded jump shots !
haha, cant beat the ones at the chalet last year, in the room at night, heh.
mel always jumps so HIGH !
games were retarded, but fun!

stayed for dinner, whoops.
then cabbed home with trini, brian and steph.

yup.

call it a hectic weekend, but it was fab (:

(I LOVE) you (:

2007-06-08T12:36:00.000+08:00

till the next time i get an opportunity to check my email or blog,
see ya (:

CHEAP HOPE

2007-06-08T11:58:00.001+08:00

Is hope cheap?

I'm at mummy's school now (: which means, i get the use the internet.
Like YAY (:

had dental yesterday (:
my braces are red (: and my teeth hurt cos he really tightened them..
well, at least i didnt feel lonely, cos i was accompanied (:
teehee, thanks :D

it's been two weeks plus into the GSS and i havent been able to go shopping with seaaaan.
like, PROPERLY.
haha (:
yea yea, i'm laoya right !
TSKKK (:

sigh, the forever21 website is SO the site to window shop on. haha, literally !

since i'm in the photoblogging mood, here're a few tops to lighten your mood (:
if you're a girl la.
-beams.

heads up !

and topshop

all this makes me wanna go shopping moreeeee !

yup !
haha. anyways, i'm gonna have lunch sooon !
And i'll prolly be heading to school later.
yup.
amanda got through the tj auditions :D
congrats !
makes me wanna get in even more!

yeaaaa.
considering i didnt do too well for MYEs, and that might prolly even be an understatement, i'm crossing ym fingers and toes.
DSA isnt all about grades, no? I, for one, hope so.

i miss you ):
and everyone knows who this is for, ha.

2007-06-08T11:53:00.001+08:00

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World Environment Day

caught Spidey again with mike ytd, haha, we caught it in this 4k digital thing, and it was omg damn clear.
haha, we had to catch it not in the normal cinema, cos yes yes, i didnt buy the tickets when i first got there at 12 +-pm
LOL.

I cried again!

aaaand, before meeting mike, i went to check out the top i want from Forever21 ((((:
the outlet there's so nice and big and empty !
i like.

went to try on the top and this other one which i quite liked (:
they're both quite alike in terms of design.

-ones got dark army green and white stripes, with random white hearts in between the stripes. It's a tank top, and the straps are pink !
in the middle there're three small pink heart buttons (((: pale army green, bright pink and white go well (:

-the second one is likewise, striped.
it's got black and white striped though. and instead of the pink outline on the top of the top as in the other one, it's TEAL (:
which happens to be close to turquoise, which is, as the avid reader of this blog would know, my favourite colour !
instead of hearts in between the stripes, there're stars ! the cutting is also different, it's looser and it flairs out (:
kinda like a maternity top, but thinner la duh. the bottom bit is flaired as well, quite pretty.

sean's gonna help me pick yea (((:
they're both nice!
i can wear S for both, but the XS fits better for the first top, and they didnt have XS for the first top.

(:

i'm amidst my reflection now though.
will continue this in awhile, time's 10.38 (:

OOH, it's 11.38 now (:
and i'm done !
(:

gotta head to school for art soon !

will update soon !

meanwhile, yesterday was world environment day!
here're a few suggestions on what you can get in touch with the environmentalist in you (:

#1
Use fewer sheets of toilet paper !
three is consider fewer btw.

#2
If you happen to spill a teeny drop of soup on your nice leather wallet, tone down the inner bimbo in you and leave it there to evaporate.
if you really cant take it, er, dont waste a piece of tissue on that tiny drop !
use your finger of smth?

#3
Four letters !
BYOB!

for those who dont know, bring your own bag !

#4
Small things make a big difference!
turning the shower off when you're soaping youself, cutting down on how much television you watch,
and even turning the air-con on at a higher temperature helps !

POLAR BEARS are dying in the Arctic due to Global Warming !
with more ice caps melting, polar bears dont have enough energy to swim to the next ice cap.
and so they drown.

it's really sad.

and what's sadder, is we played a part in it !

cutting down on our use of natural resources is really gonna help.
it might not feel like you're making a difference,
but if every body plays a part,
it'll make a big difference !

let's not leave the changing to those in the green club for hardcore environmentalists or those in big organisations like ACRES.
If we, as individuals, push our responsiblities aside, nothing's gonna get done.
Can you imagine if God decided to let someone else create the horse, or any animal for that matter.
imagine it's YOUR FAVOURITE ANIMAL.
there's no one else who can create such an animal !
SHUCKS !

I wouldnt want to imagine a world without horses.

so hey hey !
let's do our part, and reduce the rate at which global warming occurs.

There's a little girl in the world who wouldnt want to imagine a world without polar bears.

2007-06-04T15:16:00.000+08:00

little miss sunshine.

(come to think of it, i dont know why i'm making this orange, cos i told ian that sunshine is generally colourless! i mean, it is whaaaat ! if not everything we see will be like orange-y! and that's seriously gonna screw up alot of colours.- imagine orange on a green wall, EW !)

because my neck is dying and i dont wanna be a complain queen to anyone specific, i'm gonna whine here.

i havent complained online in sucha long time, i almost miss it, heh.
OKAY.
not really laaaa.

i shouldnt be complaining.
so instead, i'm gonna blog.

i'm happy, but tiredddd ! aha, and i've still got work to do !
MAN.

caught Pirates on fridayyyyy (:
first movie together (:

it was kinda boring!
a lot of fighting, and you know me, i'm really not a big fan of fighting,
well, i'm actually not a fan of fighting at all, HEH.

there weren't any emotionally strong parts in the show, soooo
i didnt cry!
HAHA, quite a few people found it pretty amazing, namely, my dad.
but yea, i didnt !
there like wasnt anything really sad, i mean none of the good guys died, or suffered any major loss or anything, so yeaaa (:

studied at the library last weekend with sean, mich and julian.
butt ache !
cos we were sitting on the floor.
sean and i couldnt find any chinese books for me to read, awwwww.

did hw, then had lunch (:
oreo milkshake (:

mass, dinner, bused home.

(:

went shopping ytd ! and on the second day of the GSS.
OMGGGG, finally !
smth i can blog about non-stop !
SHOPPING !
yes yes !
with a capital S (:

headed to Wisma Atria (:
FOREVER21 ! the variety there can so NOT beat the vivo outlet, in terms of size and all, but hey, i can shop anywhere (:

FIVE reasons why Samantha needs to start saving !

1. interlinked rainbow hearts bracelet ! $14
2.Striped dark army green and white with random hearts tank top!
(with pink straps!) $28
3. Shiny black peep-toe flats ! $39
4. Rubbery lilac pumps! from NOVO $50
(mummy said they look nice on me! )
5.Cleaaaaaar bangle with glitter ! $11

HOOO YEAH (:

sean, shirin, amanda and i caught TJC's Drama Production- A Midsummer Nights' Dream on the 25th of May
.
the acting was pretty convincing.
and i found the fight scene very well enacted.

the set was impressive !
it was so magical and pretty and nice !
it was AMAZING (:

shared a caramel frap (:

28th May !
-Malay O levels were alright.
My paper one questions were same as the chinese ones.
:O
Alice is the only known person, other than me who did questions 1 & 4 !
yup.

anyways, on a general note, my holidays are SO tied down.
From going back to school for classes during the first two weeks, to going back to school for art from mon to thurs of the last two weeks, YEA, tied down is appropriate.

If being busy was a sickness, gosh i ought to be dead.

with that said, there's no way i'm gonna miss shopping !
or catching up with peeps i only get to see like, once in awhile!

and once in awhile is an understatement man !

i think writing your own testimonial feels funny.
it's like telling yourself what you are, and making reasons for why you're like that.

well, me ?
s for samantha,
s for simple.
seeing others happy,
makes me happy.
and that's what i enjoy most.

though i have to admit, that's not always the easiest thing.
HO YEAH.

here ends my latest update! read your heart out (:

2007-06-04T14:36:00.000+08:00

I'm at amanda's place and here's my update, after almost an entire month :o

i'm so tired from writing testimonials and completing my Statement of Experiences.
and i havent even done my Reflection. and i've got three more testimonials to write. OMGGG.

major neckacheeeeee.

well, i'm really sick of typing, i'll type more when i'm done with all the stuff i have to do yup (:

see ya again soon.

so much for them being june HOLIDAYS.
somehow, every time this same topic gets stirred up. OH GOODY.

xoxoxo,
SAM.

2007-06-04T13:17:00.000+08:00

THIS IS FROM THE NINTH OF APRIL !

YEA OMG, LONG AGO.
AHAHA, OH WELLS!

so i'm sick !
and hence, staying homeeee.

i think i've been over-singing.
HAHA, if there's even sucha thing.

the doctor said i've got an overly sensitive nose--
that explains why i keep sneezing.
i sneezed 8 times in a row.
a record.

HAHA.

i've got pink medicine.
which looks like lovely raspberry cordial.
but tastes nothing like it.
it's so gross tasting.

heh,
I've got How to touch a girl stuck in my head

Do you know how to touch a girl?
if you want me so much, first i have to know.
are you thoughful and kind?
do you care what's on my mind?
or am i just for show?

you'll go far in this world if you know how to touch a girl.

haha, it's a lovelyyyy song.
and lovely seems to be the word of the day.
HAHA.

i'm totally bored.
ah, MYEs are coming :/
which i'm totally dreading.

'O' levels are getting nearer too.
and i dont feel ready at all.

i've lost the motivation to study i realised.

i used to study so hard.
and do so well.
and when my grades fell in sec 3.
i didnt pick them up.
i think i told myself i couldnt do it, too many times.
that it's already gotten to me.

as much as i want to do better.
in Add maths, or physics, it's like, I CANT.

haha, and since i'm looking at this post a whole two months later, i've already lost my train of thought, so yeah, HAHA, i'm just gonna post it for the sake of not having wasted my time typing this out, yup (:

2007-06-04T13:15:00.000+08:00

THIS IS FROM SECOND MAYYY !

which is a really looong time ago, but nvm la, heh.

I'M HAPPY NOW, ARE YOU?

SECOND May !

i know, i know, i've been MIA !
haha, i've been typing out my posts on notepad, and i figured i'll only get to post them way later, which is gonna make my posts really old and outdated,
but oh wells?

i'll live !
anyways (:
-SMILES.

life's been well.
let me try and use an anecdote.

on second thoughts.
i'll stick to typing it out straight.
heh.

the stars have already been named, so fate couldn't just be a game.

i've been happy (:
never been happier basically.

I'm so happy.
You've made everyday a new best day of my life.
It's smth i just realised.

I'm happier, why?
questions and questions.
only one answer.
you (:

somehow days seem brighter.
smiles, wider.
everyone says i'm noticeabky cheerier.
who knew?

how life contradicts.
I've learnt;
my heart's stringer than i thought.

I've never been so happy,
there's really nothing better i can think of.

you've painted a rainbow in my heart
& it's staying.
cos i'm very happy now, are you ? (:

There's a Singaporean poet, Vivienne Yeo, who wrote a book, and came to read a few poems during assembly sometime last year.
they quite appeal to me.
have a read.

this one's titled Sheer Love.

Sheer Love is uber
Like a sublime stupor-
Kissed by consistent passion,
Sparking infinite possibilties.

It drives the soul
Towards a goal;
And stiffens one's resolve
No matter what the odds.

What a love that surges forth
From waters of turbulent froth,
Emerging triumphant
No matter the odds.

Sheer love conquers the impossible,
making all else possible'
sustaining a noble fire,
That keeps life resiliently aglow.

how unseen, yet seen.
so invisible, yet visible.

(:

anyways, life's been, well, happy.
i know, i'm suffering from a major lack of vocabulary, but ah, happiness seems to define my life pretty well.
i'm reaaaaally looking forward to the june hols.
eventhough i'm gonna be going head on for coursework intensive, i'll be able to hang out (:
which i have so been deprived of (:

the Forever21 Sale starts on the 25th of MAY!
coming coming.

we'll go shopping alrights (:

and i swear it'll be great.

Samantha Ann Michaela Branson is a happy girl.
She has been, and will be (:

heyhey, i'll be counting down.
ten years and a day.

that's all i'll ever need.

there's a rainbow in my <3
& baby, it's gonna stay.

2007-06-04T13:14:00.000+08:00

THIS POST IS FROM LONG LONG AGOOOO !
CHECK IT OUT (((:

ij-sji combined camp.

this post is going to be brief.

wholly, camp was better than i had expected.
my group mates in Jia Ting were fun and participative.
we learnt the warpath cheer.
it was scary at first.
aha.

dragon boating was fun.
go bimbos !

we formed the SBS, Smart Bimbo Society.
lol.

the visit to the hospital was rewarding in ways.

the i-realities was quite, err?
first thing that came to my mind when we were challenged to be different was,
there's a difference between defiance and being different.
and i felt that the difference, wasnt highlighted, or even recognised.
i felt that it was made to seem as though defiance and being different were equated.
to a certain extent.

the reflection, was good.
but i felt that there was insufficient time, the second time, when we were nearing the end of the camp.

talentime was alright.
though i could see any apparent link to the theme,
Leading today, changing tomorrow.

the photos were fun.

the guys really put in a lot of effort into warm fuzzies,
and that was touching, for me.

val can play Way Back Into Love on the piano (:
spent quite a bit of time together singing at the piano while she played.

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration. Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

yea.
games on day one were good.

generally, i guess i found camp alright,
because i was able to push aside and ignore certain prejudices, in a sense.
and in doing so, was able to focus more on learning, and gaining something from camp, whilst still having fun.

i almost erupted at some point, but hey, that's when my friends came in.
Thanks.

the warm fuzzies were really, affirming.

well, my voice is pretty much dead now.
yea.

ij left, ij right.
ij centre, ij fight.

p.s. you're gonna see this post a lot later, cos my connection died.
OH FISH.
e learning's coming.
SHUCKS.

2007-05-10T17:37:00.000+08:00

I'll be

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
And emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive and not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

And I've dropped out, I've burned up
I fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on
Remembered the things that you said

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

The greatest fan of your whole life

stuck in my head! AH, JESSSSS (:

2007-05-10T17:24:00.000+08:00

Can i paint a wall in the house turquoise ?

(((:
love love.

2007-05-10T17:03:00.000+08:00

I'M STILL HAPPY.
HAPPINESS TO DISPENSE.

this is my third post since i lost my internet connection, sad eh?

to anyone out there who's down or needs to share a problem, i'm here (:
-not that i'm great or anthing, but i have happiness to dispense (:
anyways, samantha ann michaela branson's as happy as ever (:
haha, keep guessing why (((:

as of today, exams're officially OVERRR (cue the screaming for joy!)
yea (((:

caught spiderman 3 with amanda yesterday.
my dad said he though i would cry like thrice.
heyhey, i cried eight times.
i know i know pathetic la.
haha.

the ending was kinda expected, and cheesy, but i thought the show was good.
peter parker looks awful when emo.

and to amanda's and my horror, the cineman was filled with noisy students.
who had some problem, majorly.
i figured that if they didnt say the f-word every time it was at some high climax quiet scene at the movie, their mouths'd like drop off or smth.
it didnt help that the girl in front of us had to discover that her friend had finished the drink that they were sharing, and she had to proclaim it out loud, when it was at some climatic scenee.
UGH, annoying.

i'm prolly just being a sissy, but amanda and i seriously considered telling the guy on our left that we'd be amazed if he found, or had a girlfriend.
who throws popcorn at girls !
answer-other girls.

haha, lame.

in mean.
how can a guy throw popcorn at a girl!
unless maybe it's his girlfriend la.(-not a hint :p )
it's like --
HELLO, pick on someone your own size, and gender !

anyways, i just caught a bit of Moulin Rouge (:
i should be leaving for home SOOOON (:

love is the river of the world.

when i close my eyes, it's you i see.

well, loves (:

COME WHAT MAY (:

2007-05-04T16:08:00.000+08:00

Samantha Ann Michaela Branson is bursting to blog.
OMG.
i havent been online in ages-
i think my fingers are typing at the speed of a bullet train in tokyo.

anyways, if you're wondering how samantha's been,
yes, she's been fine.

she's been really happy (:
makes you wonder why doesnt it?
hee.

so basically, her life's been happy (:

i know i know, you're beginning to think my vocab sucks.

well, let's just say if you see my hanging around anywhere in school. you're bound to catch me smiling.
no, not because i've done smth wrong and i'm trying to cover it up with a sneaky grin.
but a jubilant smile.
(yay for improved vocab, heh)

cos heyhey,
samantha ann michaela branson's a happy happy happy girl.
three guesses why (:

exams're almost over yay (:
i cant wait.

look at the stars, look how they shine for you

june hols means shopping ! (:
of course, there's mt O LEVELS first.
but ah, the june hols're something i'd much prefer to look forward to.

shopping dates.
movie dates.
more time out.

so yup, june hols yay !

i watched thumbelina today !
it's so aww.
especially the part when prince cornelius took her on his flying bumblebee (:

well, in case you cant already tell, i'm high on happiness (:
I've never been happier, really.
love love.
haha,
i've been ranting, mhmm (:

well, since pictures speak a thousand words, and i needa compensate for my previous lack of posts, here're a few photos which i can pretty much find myself relating to.
i'll let them speak for themselves (:

hahah, amanda just told me smth funny.
part of the clique was at breakfast today, and mag was like,' i wanna marry someone with big eyes', so it'll compensate for her small eyes.
and shirin was like,

i think you should marry someone with brains.

haha, i know who i wanna marry (:

so basically, life's been nothing short of great (((:

I'm happy, are you?
(:

heaven isn't too far, heaven is where you are.
stay with me and let me be you wings (:

2007-04-16T14:56:00.000+08:00

i'm here again !
haha, at amanda's house la.
if not i still dont have a secure connection, HEH, HEH and HEH !

anyways.
Samantha Ann Michaela Branson has been a very happy girl.
and is a very happy girl (:

anyways!
i went shopping at Vivo ytd (:

i cant wait for exams, so i can actually shop without MYEs at the back of my mind (:
spotted a really me top ytd (:
it's like the first rainbow one i posted two post ago!
yup.

had Marche's for dinner, dropped by my ever favourite Forever21 then headed home (:

i think lifts are unglam! HAHA. RANDOM !

and i ironically had I'm Not Missing You stuck in my head on Sunday (((:

Oh, Oh
I’m not missing you
Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don’t know what I was missing or why I ain’t listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiousity
Now that it’s over
What else could it be, he decides to cheat.

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn’t I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

(But) I’m not missing you
I’m not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I’m not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I’m usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you go
But this time it’s different
I don’t even feel the distance
I’m not missing
I’m not missing you

It’s a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn’t I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

No I can’t be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can’t keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when it’s right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else's life

(But) I’m not missing you
I’m not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I’m not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I’m usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone (I used to hate it)
Oh different, oh feel the distance
I’m not missing
I’m not missing you

I’m not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me (knockin' at my door)
You might have had me open
But I must be going because (it's the best day of my life)
I know I’m usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
Oh different, feel the distance
I’m not missing
I’m not missing you I'm not missing you (oh baby)
I'm not missing you
Im not missing, im not missing you.

Ironic because i'm happy (:
haha, oh wells!

i like this picture (:
alot ! ((:

chocolate (:

2007-04-08T20:20:00.000+08:00

i'm online !!!
after a good three weeks ! tell me i ought to be happy! haha, well i have been..
VAT's over now (:
and i couldn't be happier !
my brother's having his birthday party now, and i'm supposed to be doing drinks.. but haha (:

i figured i've spent more than ten hours in church from thursday till todayy (:
Easter Vigil went quite well. i pretty ymuch sang my voice dry, and i've got oral tmr.. shucks !

i'm quite looking forward to oral (:
i guess talking comes naturally to me --and i'm pretty sure my friend's can testify.

well, thing's have been flying high for me, and i've been happy (:

of course this wouldnt be so without my friends (:
yay for friends!
what'd i do without them (:

hmmm, let's talkabout school! i'm sitting with JIA MIN! (:
muackies muacks muacks (:

and with Shirin in front of me, there's never a boring day in school -- not like there ever was, i mean, with sarah. haha, how could it be?

the past week was spent singing Phantom of the Opera songs at the top of our voices--

Father once spoke of an angel,
i used to dream he'd appear,
now as i sing i can sense him,
and i know he's here (:

and alot more.
haha, i've currently got Think of Me stuck in my head (:

Think of me
think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me
once in a while -
please promise me
you'll try.

CHRISTINE
When you find
that, once
again, you long
to take your heart back
and be free -
if you
ever find
a moment,
spare a thought
for me

We never said
our love
was evergreen,
or as unchanging
as the sea -
but if
you can still
remember
stop and think
of me . . .

Think of all the things
we've shared and seen -
don't think about the things
which might have been . . .

Think of me,
think of me waking,
silent and
resigned.

Imagine me,
trying too hard
to put you
from my mind.

Recall those days
look back
on all those times,
think of the things
we'll never do -
there will
never be
a day, when
I won't think
of you . .

it's sucha lovely song! sighs!

anyways
i dont know what to blog about. HAHA, you know it's like when you have smth to type, you cant.
and when you have nothing to type, you cant!

anyways!
to get in touch with my 'fashionista side' i shall fashion blog (:

as in the previous post, but with, hopefully, more content (: let's start in the next post (: heads up !

2007-03-26T13:28:00.000+08:00

hello! haha, OMG.
as of twelve forty six today,
i'm a bimbo.
AH.
OMG.

last night my sister was arguing with me how BEAN should be pronounced.
then i was like,
anyway, who cares, there no such word as bean!

and then she's like, WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU! there is !
aha, and i was like, huh?OH YEA.. (heh)

and today ! on the way to amanda's house, we were walking past one of the houses. then i hear Jojo's too little too late playing. so i thought it was from the house and i was like, aha, eh, i've been listening to that song non-stop.
and then like, one minute later, i'm like, eh! it was coming from my phone pocket la !
hahahaha, SO RETARDED PLEASE.

haha, i'm looking at clothes at Forever21 online.
SO PRETTY la.

mhmm (:

VAT's coming on alright..
yeah (:

saturday was fun (((:
sunday was alright (:
anyways!
ONLINE SHOPPING (:

i think these two tops are so me.
HAHA, i love rainbows (:
they're just so colourful and happy !

penitential service tonight (:

my dictionary's kinda screwed, it doesnt define darling correctly (:

2007-03-23T16:05:00.000+08:00

haha, ah.
one word,

ABS.

LOL.
i'm listening to Phantom of the Opera songs. AH, i'm supposed to be doing my e-learning. heh.
amanda and i are gonna watch Corpse Bride after this.
ho yeah (:

2007-03-23T15:00:00.000+08:00

ahhhh, omg.
i havent been online for the longest time.
that's what you get with a busy busy schedule, and a screwed up connection- dont laugh edwin !

anyways, i'm at amanda's house and supposed to be doing e learning. (heh)
i'm listening to Way Back Into Love non-stop, and i've got a whole lot of updatning to do, well here goes (: heads up for a longggggg post !

hmm, where do i start!
okay, MARCH HOLS (:

MONDAY !
watched Music and Lyrics at vivo (:
helped me de-stress, as anticipated.

TUESDAY
tourney (:

WEDNESDAY
tourney.
was top tenth girl for OPEN category-which is under twenty and below.
it was fab.

THURSDAY was comb camp.
which was fun. the people in my group were great.
games were fun.
okaaaaay.
this post is really general because the only thing that's running through my head now is VAT..
yea.

FRIDAY.
camp was fun.
it exceeded my expectations in more ways than one.
(ZOMG. i just checked my email. FIFTY FIVE MAILS. that's how long i havent checked my mail.haha.)
mostly from Friendster though.

yeaaa.
camp was the most memorable of the hols for me.
went to the beach on saturday.
met mike.
almost got hit in the head by a rugby ball.

but yea, survived.
Sunday!
phantom of the opera ((:
so sad and touching. OMG.

Say you need me with you now and always;
promise me that all you say is true,
that's all I ask of you.

Wishing you were somehow here again . . .
wishing you were somehow near . . .
Sometimes it seemed if I just dreamed,
somehow you would be here . . .

currently, stressing over my visual arts task.
it's coming on quite okay.
though i've been sleeping later than usual, slept at ONE last night doing the colour scheme and spent three hours in the library today.
i should've turned into a block of ice, honestly.

yesterday was sports day. blue house got first runner up -YAY (:
we rocked.

well, i've got so much to catch up on, i dont really wanna blog. but yeah, i miss blogging.
well, for those who havent heard, i'll only be getting a stable internet connection on the 17th of April.
till then ah, i'll just have to live without internet explorer. OHH YEAH..

i should be doing my e-learning soon. Mhmm.
I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need `em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Ohhhhh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end

i watched corpse bride that day, she has sexy legs omg.
HAHA, and aaron thinks thay turn me on. HEH !

This is wrong, Victor. My dreams were stolen from me, and now I've
taken somebody else. I love you Victor, but you are not mine.

it's like, wah, sacrifice. she loved him so much omg. yeaaaa. i cried of course.
the piano playing part is so nie, hmm. heard jeremy can play it.
anyways,
I'vebeen busy, and will continue to be (:
message me or call or smthn if you like REALLY REALLY miss my blogging?
i've always time to spare for a listening ear, or if you needa rant, i'm always here.

i may be busy, but i'm not going anywhere.
i'll always be here.

love you (((:

2007-03-10T22:08:00.000+08:00

yesterday !
was CBD zone outing !
(:
with sarah, su anne and amanda! and it was MAJORLY FUN.
it was like our geog research thing, and omg, those who havent gone yet, it
was super fun.
the funness made the distance seem so short.
the things we saw were cool!
like the old old weighting scale !
this old man helped us take our weights on it, and wah, accurate!
and yea!
lau pa sat was fun!
HAHAHA, shooting nerds.
we were using straws to shoot nerds into each others mouths instead of ice.
HAHA.
we walked alot, from Outram MRT all the way to Raffles Place.
then me and su raced amanda and sarah to City Hall, and hey, we reached
about the same time.
they took the train, and we walked at like, lightning speed.
we had a alot of retarded moments, with the yoga on the Raffles place grass
patch.
cam whoring at the OUB reflective thing, and the reflective sphere outside
the OUB building.
and many other random photos we stopped to take along the way.
here, see for yourself.

su and sarah at macs!
we were doing our history project.
really (:

reflection!
before reaching pagoda street.

CHINATOWN (:

tourists in chinatown.

club street!

the cool weighing thing!

at crossroads !

nerd shooting at lau pa sat!

raffles place!

ohmmmmmmmm.
then we reached city hall. shopped for a bit,
and caught a fashion show.

came home, went cycling, and caught the afterglow of the sunset

my hair's so wavy! haha, at chinatown.
headed towards the shrine.
came home.
watched tv.
had dinner.
went for supper at chompchomp.
love you.
take care.
saturday is love.
and so are you (:

2007-03-06T21:51:00.000+08:00

the annoyed sam gets whiny.and rants alot.

excuse my useless complains, and noises.

i'm beginning to think that i've got the tolerance level and patience of a crayfish.HAHAHA.

but i'm still happy (:

my blogger's screwed now.

march hols are like two days away.
and i've got smth on every single day.amazing, heh!

anyways!it's CBD zone outing day on friday (: Sarah, Su Anne, Amanda and I are gonna have fun fun fun.i can already tell (: hoho.yeah.

thanks to whoever's posted this :D

LEAVE ME ALONE PLEASE.

2007-03-02T18:56:00.000+08:00

today is retarded day.
a lot of retarded things happened.
anyways!
i had fun in the chem lab.
ah, i miss titration.
the colours are SO PRETTY.
i love potassium permanganate.
i took photos ! (:
so funny.

then headed to ljs for lunch.
mos burger was funny !
HAHAHA, JESS AND MAD ! (:

anyways.
it's so rainy !
but oh wells !
i walked in the rain.
aha, oh, got my two badges todaaaay.
so i've three badges now (:

tra la la la la.
you know what, i just realised that recently, i've been so busy, i havent been blogging bout anything random.
AHHH.
time to get back into the habit -BEAMS.

ten random facts for today!

1. window shopping online is like fab!
OMG. you save on leg energy. hand energy. and mouth energy.
i think it's prolly my hobby (:

2.i didnt see you for a weeeeeeeek ! :D
haha, that's record.

3.i love art. as much as it drives me up to wall, (:

4.i walk damn fast. my normal walking speed is equivalent to amanda's jogging speed.
AH.

5.i love unicorns. and i dont care if tracy chevalier (or whoever- i cant really rmb) thinks and says they have vulgar references.

6.i have a newfound good impression of ____. i like people who're defensive ! hahaha, and that was one heaven of a strooong post !

7.i think it's really cool how people just well, CLICK.

8.i'm suddenly tired.

9.i think chairs are like one of the easiest things to draw.

10.i figured i can get really really retarded.
like yeah man!
ahaaaaaaa. lol. eh, dont laugh !

(((:
i'm feeling happy happy happy today.
cos it's one week to the march hols.
mrs alex is so funny.

she goes on about how we have to bring all the ij girls who mispronounce words back.
i still dont see how people can pronounce champagne as SHAM PUG NE.
hahahaha.
and yeah!
the whole pro-gre, praw-gress.
and sing-E-pore and sing-AHHH-pore.
and TUS! vs THHHHUS.
and merlowwww and merLOT.
and versaiiii and versalles.
HAHA, AHHH.
and that's just a handful.

sorry for being such a proper pronounciation(proNUNciation,) freak, not like my english is perfect, but yeah.

and there's not a lesson where mrs alex doesnt bring in sji, or an sji old boy.
or smth sji related.
hehhhh.
she seems to emphasize the bonds the guys have.
such that they still remain good friends, even now. like when they're twenty over years old.
i personally find it amazing.
and yea, i guess it displays the importance, and how big a role being in a catholic school plays.
we once discussed this
DOES THE SENSITIVE TEENAGE BOY EXIST.

well, i'd like to think so.
an insensitive world'd be killer please!

and she told us bout how ij girls had the 'best choice' back when we at victoria street.
cos we had both raffles and sji at our doorstep.
and how we mostly chose sji.

anyways! sensitivity.
ah, sensitivity.
who on earth draws the line to sensitive, and over sensitive.
i guess it's up to the individual in comparison to her own sensitivity level.
doesnt take a genius to tell you that.(hurr)

yeaaaa. ah, i feel like shopping!
i can shop anyday la.

to end off, think.

hopping is to girls what soccer is to boys.

shouldnt shopping be a cca?

haha, oh i just remembered what miss chye told me.
girls are like taps. and boys are like rice-cookers.

p.s. thanks ___ !!! YAY, OMG.
you have no idea how happy i am.
imagine two hours of listening to asve me and stressing over a half loaded, not gonne fully load page !

(((((:

2007-03-01T20:46:00.000+08:00

List ten things you want to say to ten random people, but you know you never will say these things to them.
Don’t say who the comment is meant for, and use people only once.

1. Stop being so annoying. stop doing my job, it's my job for a reason.
if you think you're so cool, you arent. wow, you aren't. go figure.
2. Love always wins (:
3. ah, why can't hotmail email let me put pictures in my email !
sadddd. i think i'd die without being able to doodle. OMG, you shoud see my textbooks, especially my add maths tb. hoho, and my malay tb. they're mostly full of stars and hearts. heh. random! i cant waitttt !
4. I think you rock. oh wait, i know you do.
5. I dont like the way things have changed. cos i liked them the way they are. i guess it isnt just about what i like.
6. I think you're hot.
7. I dont know if i'll ever tell you anything again.
8. Where'd you go?
9. I didnt waste my time, guess you weren't worth, ah. go walk to the carpark.
10. I miss you and i hope you're alright. cos you're shutting me out.

2007-03-01T19:36:00.000+08:00

yesterday! i managed to complete my VAT draft one in about an hour and a half whilst on the phone (:
thanks (((:

today was cooooold.
the wind was like natural air con.
PE was spent story telling bout IJ ghost stories and rumoured haunts.
got our add math tests baaaack.
i failed by half a mark !
not bad la.
it's a ten mark improvement, so i'm not complaining (:

did another sketch today !
another chair/stool.
i figured that if i did one sketch a day, i'd have more than enough sketches to use for both VAT and my coursework.
my final idea's pretty much confirmed.
i just need to grasp it properly, so i'll know for sure sure sure what everything's supposed to represent, and be able to explain it..
mmhmm. cos i know what it's supposed to rep, but cant really explain it and all..

maths class is always retarded. hey, we're the three Sssss(pun maaaaybe intended (((: )
HAHAHA, screams.

sorry for all the noise today 4/3!
it aint easy getting sarah/su's book to draw on ;)
HAHAHA, so i kinda screamed when sarah laaaa TSK !

so funny i tell you.
you could get abs from working those muscles by laughing.

yea!
hahaha.
29 days to VAT submission.
ahhhh.

one week to march hols !
which i'm fully booked for, heh.
it's gonna be a smashing march hols though.
or so i hope !

love love!

2007-02-27T20:29:00.000+08:00

two different points to note--

thanks baby. ilu.

yay for the march hols.
you just gave it meaning!

2007-02-27T19:56:00.000+08:00

screamed headaches.
yay for me.
i feel like fishcakes.
so rub it in.
one day i'm just gonna give up.
no, the reason why i'm hanging isnt cos i wanna prove you wrong.
or cos i say i never quit.
it's cos i care so much bout you.
believe me, i do.
~~fuck~~
~~i'll cry for everyone who needs a hand if i knew it'd help them really.~~
~~cos i know it feels awful waiting day on end.no, i'm not alright. OUGHT I BE.~~

~~OUGHT I BE.~~

2007-02-27T18:40:00.000+08:00

you're busy girl.

proposals due.
studying to get done.
drafts to submit.
things to think about.
sketches to complete.
t-shirts to collect.
a playground to design.
datelines to reach.
people to care about.
things to do.
money to collect.
people to chase.
irresponsibility to check.
expectations to live up to.
commitments to recognise.
targets to reach.

haha, wtf? i'm almost complaining.
i've been having a throbbing headache on off since sunday.
and as you can tell, i havent been online in quite a period of time.

i'll have to be very general in posting today for basically, the reasons stated above.

clarke quay is gorgeous.
the clouds are so pretty today.

and i'm really too worked up now to blog like normal.
we got our yearbooks today (:

went to make the chess t-shirt.
competition's coming.
it's 20 mins per side this year.
which is a totally drastic change from the usual one hour.
it's annoying, yes.

and i got annoyed, yea.

shopping helps, as always.
omg, march hols are coming.
there's like one thing to look forward to,
and that's the outing.
other than that it's like watching water leak endlessly from a tap.
drip drip drip.

homework filled hols.
i've already got my comp on tues till wed afternoon.
camp on thurs, fri.
which leaves only monday.
AH.

HOLIDAYS.
every year day in day out, i discuss the irony.

sheesh, i wonder if stress ever killed.
if it did, i'd bet half or singapore's students'd be long gone.
no one ever tells you to stop and smell the flowers.
singapore's so clean and green, but hey, we haven't the time to appreciate it all.
sad, eh.
well,
having to mug my head off at twelve am's sadder.

ah, one day i'll make headlines.

if there's anything i need to think about, it's balance.
what is balance.
ah, here's pending a long and reflective post.

balance.
as in new balance.

balance.
the abilty to somewhat juggle academics, cca, commitments, family friends and personal time.

ah, i really dont wanna think bout this.
maybe cos it makes me feel so unbalanced now.

right now.
all i wanna do is sleep,
sleep and listen to Not Ready to Make Nice, and tell you i love you, like you dont already know.

edit--

tag replies!
hi teresa!
HAHAHA. OLGA ! (: imma good spy, yes?
thanks mag!
anon, it's from FOX at Plaza Sing.
they've got it in pink there as well,
and they've got it in baby blue at the junction eight outlet.
it might be sold out by now though you can try. mmhmm (:

so yea.
it's been a drag.
thirty five weeks.

i'm so irked now.
cos my internet is SO LAG.

and i've begun to think how scary i can get sometimes.
when i'm angry.
or feeling so depressed, i cant think.
or when i act on impulse.
or when i'm pmsing.
it's just that i-want-everybody-to-go-away-and-leave-me-alone feeling.
then it's like BOOM, no one is talking to you, you're all alone.
so it's like, wow.
serious bubble bursting.
ah, i'm rambling.
and you'll prolly not understand what i just said but, ah heck.

too much shit.

it's those short instances when i think about random people.
and how they are
and i worry.

fish it.

2007-02-21T20:27:00.000+08:00

i'm hereby gonna prove this WROOOOONG.

'you always SAY but eventually don't. '

ignore the randomness, someone out there gets this (:

LOVE LOVE LOVE (:
Ij girls make the best gfs :D
OH YOU LOSER-ER !
dont reply kaes ! <3
but nowhere near you (:
say again say again :D
POKE POKE POKE
i want YOURSSSS [[:
( TSK TSK TSK ) LOVES YOU SOOO MUCH (:

:D

so un-specific.
TSK TSK.
((((:

<3>

2007-02-21T20:10:00.000+08:00

school today was alright (:

i dont feel like typing or blogging!

my fortune cookie on the first day of CNY (:

hahahaha, so funny !
i started giggling.

love you (:

2007-02-20T11:18:00.000+08:00

CNY's been a blast (:

day one !
lunch at pohpoh's house.
YAY for ginger duck !
and my fortune cookie.
HEHE.

wore my cheongsam material skirt and and my new top!

yay for army green.

haha, though most of the time was spent watching movies at pohpoh's house while the older people gambled outside.
watched Blood Diamond and cried.
HAHA, my dad says he cant count the number of movies i havent cried at with like two fingers.
which of course i'll deny.

and watched Flushed Away and John Tucker must die too.

HAHAHA. yeaaah.
spent almost the whole day messaging too (:

PHOTOS (to be uploaded soon)

day twooo
woke up at like ten thirty.
slept at one the previous night.
Left for uncle james' house!
watch Fantastiv four there.
took more photos !
with uncle marc's 14mega pixel camera.
one photo's like 28 MB? round there.
that's like SO MUCH.

watched the cousins play twister! i was wearing a dress so i couldnt play.
awwww.

the gorgeous stray at uncle steven's house.
so pretttttty (:

love the car (:

me and my godmother (:

GOODIES !

mummy me and zac!

so yeah (:
i can barely remember what happened heh.

(:
haha, imagine if everyday was your be-nice-to-samantha day darlinggg.

2007-02-17T13:16:00.000+08:00

<3

INVEST PHOTOS !
click here.
loading all 97 of them was killer !
so make the best!

dinner ytd !
at thomson plaza.
saw miss shanthi, and said hi.
HAHA, went shopping.

retail therapy.
haha, i think michael's put it rather well, i'm sooo

shopaholic-y.

LOL.
just after getting my new top, i found another nice new top!

it's an abercrombie&fitch creamy chrome yellow top that has abercrombie&fitch printed in lovely gold.
it's so pretty!

anyways, to further prove that i'm too shop-py.
haha, i looooove looking at
bags/earrings/bracelets/sunglasses/tops/dresses/sunglasses/mini skirts/necklaces
anything!
Forever 21 online, TOPSHOP, Accessorize.

reached home !
haha, edwin tan !
HAHAHAHA.

Today is Olga's birthday!
HAPPY FIFTEENTH BIRTHDAY !
have a smashing birthday!

haha, i've got KISS ME, stuck in my head (:

ahha, wah.
the baby oranges are super sweet.
mmhmmm.

reunion dinner later !
steamboat (:

dont rain on my parade.

2007-02-16T16:16:00.000+08:00

class photos from self awareness camp!
CLICK HERE.
loading them took ages, so enjoy!

2007-02-16T15:32:00.000+08:00

CNY celebrations !

haha, were good !

left like ten minutes early cos i had to go for my appt.
orange red orange red.

mhmm!
i realised vivo is one stop away from outram !
next appt !

and ahaha, went to ps to get my top.
saw a few sji ppl.
haha, then walked past ljs and saw more.
LOL, wah.
ps was like filled with acs, sji and cj.
HEH.

bumped into them once.
aha,
then met edwin.

luckyyyy you werent there !
hahaha.

met shirin!
got jess' present.
headed to j8 cafe cartel for lunchhhh.

and here i am now (:

anyways!
INVEST !
and valentines day (:

invest !
yay, so i'm finally installed (:

all went well.
the st nick's girls i hosted were really nice !
mmhmm.
they were all sec three..
talked to them bout school and stuff.
(:

got trigger happy !

trini, me and esti's gorgeous phone!

yay st nicks !

and aep lesson after invest!

thanks edwin ! -beams.

haha, yeah.
met someone after that !
-beams.
haha, and finally got smth done (:

AHAHA.
retarded.
was in council u so i was super hot -WARM!
mmhmm (:

then came thursday.
and today.

time really flies !
gosh, it's scary.
meanwhile.

Samantha Ann Michaela Branson will be getting fat.
thanks to pineapple tarts, bak kwa, prawn rolls etc etc etc.

mainly bak kwa and pineapple tarts.
ah, i need to get exercising!

i havent gone cycling in OH SO LONG.
maybe i will after this.

yay, i love my new top.
my randomness is back.
jp marvels at the wonder of my subtle ability to persuade.
HAHAHA.

let's do this visual thing now
-it's gonna make me seem like some bimbo whatever, but!
the key word is SEEM !
(dont laughhhh!)

imagine a girl looking at her handphone screen half the time.
She's in the train carriage.
she's wondering how one of her friends is, and he replies !
ahaha, and it's a retardedly funny reply !
so she grins.
aha, i bet half the carriage thought i was retarded !
anyways!
imagine her walking through dhoby gaut and entering plaza sing.
and entering the FOX shop.
and buying her NEWWW TOP.
i didnt even have to tell the guy i'd reserved it, he just GAVE it to me.
like, psychic much?
and hahaha, i paid.
he asked if i wanted to use American Express, i'm like, er.
HAHA.

then i walked, in my school shoes.
i wonder whose idea it was to wear SCHOOL SHOES with jeans and a red t-shirt.
like, it just screams national day reject.
seriously !
i changed to my teal shirt anyways, i'm not exactly gonna walk around in my red shirt!
i cant even lift my arms in that shirt!
heh.
so yeah, unglam school shoes.
so unglam, it defines unglam!

heh, i'm happy with my new top !
VERY HAPPY.
-grins

i'll never ever ever forget what mrs fam said at our self awareness camp--
(WAH PIANG. i just whacked my leg against the other computer screen on the floor. WAHHHHH.DAMN PAIN LA! )
ahhhh, i'll skip it.
i lost the mood to wanna type what she said.
ask me if you want.

anyways!
i'm gonna come up with a looooong post, about BIMBOS.
and annoying stereotypes!
-stares at THE people who call me bimbo when i'm having a blonde moment.

haha, pressing down on a tap thats supposed to be turned isnt bimbo thing la!
RIGHT?
tag!

till later, LATER !
oh wait, tag replies!

nicole !
hi hydrogen atom! haha, yeah. our outing never came!

shirin!
-i've uploaded them all on shutterfly !
will give you the link soon!

clarisse!
hahahaha, yeah (: MISS YOU!

ena!
PARTNERRRR, i love you!
happy sweet 16 again!

michael!
HAHAHA, mmhmm!
retarded.
and oohkay!

sabrina and cat!
sure thing !
SEE YOU GUYS AROUND (:
p.s. which sabrina are you! HAHA.

jess and mag!
hahaha, i'll give y'all the link sooooon!
LOVES!

cam whoring.
new specs !

you know you make me smile (:

2007-02-12T18:11:00.000+08:00

valentines day's here all over again.

you're the brightest star.
ily.

2007-02-12T16:41:00.000+08:00

God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow,sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.

If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

self awareness camp was good.

i'll blog briefly, i havent all the time in the world.

the IHM retreat house was equivalent to a chalet.
fun sessions, reflections, sleep time, phone conversation, meal times, netball, water games (:

and a heaven lot of camwhoring (:
it def brought 4/3 closer! whoots.
i'm my usual self again (:

i've a multitude of photos which i'll upload ASAP okay !

the three of us ! on my bed (:

the clique !
mr ng's physics lessons are seriously getting to us !
right hand rule and the left hand thing.
HAHAHAHA, retarded.

GUESS WHO !

jump for the OBS shirts ! (((:
mad, me, isabelle, geri, mag, teow and amanda.

pretty slippers ! go group twoooooo !

and i wonder why i've got a huge bump on the right side of my head that hurts ever so much!

the pretty 4.3 class shirt!

the clique !
i love you guys!

JUMP SHOT !
we jumped like ten over times.
tag if you want me to upload all the shots !

me, jess and su!
cosonsecutive jumping !

more jumping !

me and su anne! JUMP !

3/4 of the clique

1/2 of the clique.

1/2 of the clique!

SLEEPY PEOPLE ON THE MORNING.
scream unglam!

sleepy people who just woke up trying to look awake (:
AHAHAHA (:
-- MORE PHOTOS TO COME! we're compiling a class album.

i'm totally busy !
havent been online in a rather long time.
go quite a few shoutouts to do!

THANKS goes out to everyone who's been there (:

Special mention to Ian and Edwin Tan for really hearing me out, and for being advice columns, listening ears, absorbant sponges, and relevant subject changers all at the same time (:
you guys redefined the term friends.

TAAAAN (: who's been every supportive, and ever so caring.
with you around, i know i'll have a shoulder to cry on (:
thank you.

Michael
For the un-ending advice from experience, for practically watching out for me, and for the heart to heart talk (:
you're awesome.

Marc
For the lovely email (:
it touched me really.

and to everyone else who made me smile in more ways than one (:

THANK YOU

life's been good.

Saturday was a totally happy day (:
ask me why (:
YOU'RE SLIM.

no aunty! she's not slim!

HAHAHA (:
so cute.

and the loooong bus rides.
loves.

then on sunday !
shopping !
OMGGGG ((((:
FOX has this totally pretty top (:
which my mummy bought.
she bought th pink one, i want the army green one.
she says no getting it cos i look slim in it, and she insists i'm all bones.
to which (of course) i disagree!

and so i tried it on.
ah, whenever i try stuff, if it fits, i'll end up getting it. teehee.

anyways!
i had to rush rush rush home to change and leave again for Ena's party!

from Bishan MRT to the interchange, it was oh so crowded, and oh so windy!
i was carrying mum's FOX plastic bag, my phone, my ex link, my hand bag and trying to hold my sjirt donw, hey, it WAS awfully windy.
when i reached the interchange,

the forgetful samantha thinks--
OH SHUCKS !
where's my ez link.

i'm lost for a moment.
and i havent a free hand cos i'm holding the bags and phone in one hand, and holding down my skirt in the other. so it's like AH !

i walk up and down, but it's GONE !
so i call samira, thanks goodness she was nearby.
got coins, bused home, changed, my phone battery DIED and i had no time to charge it.
SUAY.

so there goes my ez link
well, NEW PHOTO (:
then then then i met amanda, danella and sexy.
we got flowers! WAH, it was double the price la !
speaking of which velentines' day is COMING. anyways!

we left for Marina Mandarin.

had a lovely dinner, and an awesome party.
i love you partner.

send me photos isabelle! sarah! amanda ! hannah! sarah! christine! PRETTY PLEASE!

anyways.
mummy called !
AND AND AND !
she's getting me the top i want !
AHHHH, so pretty !
and like YAY (:
i love my mummy!

and! she found my ez link card !
some kind soul returned it to the bishan mrt !
-BEAMS!

and just as i though i couldnt get any happier,
someone special messages me (:

anyways! i missed out a lot of stuff but i really havent the time !
i've gotta do a hist essay, physics w/s and other stuff stuff.

invest's in 48hours !!!!!!!
omg.

i needa chill.
ice-cream, mike! HAHA.

somebody up there's watching over me.

2007-02-06T21:36:00.000+08:00

i'm always like that.
ah, ignore the previous posts.

2007-02-06T20:34:00.000+08:00

take me away.

2007-02-06T20:13:00.000+08:00

i dont know her.

She stares blankly.
Blink.
Blink.
Blink.
Faces are faceless.
colours blend into colours, that blend into other colours.

She’s looking.
Seeking to efface all worry.
Wanting to efface all sorrow.
but no effacement.

An ourie atmosphere.
of miscoloured feelings

she gives up.
just take her eyes away already.
so she wont have to see this keep happening.
all the tears.
and hurt.

she knows not reason anymore.
maybe it’s hiding, maybe she’s just blind.

She keeps looking.
She doesn’t know what she’s looking for, she doesn’t know if it’s even there.
She’s just holding on.
Everyday is just another day.

It’s like she never knew a rainbow.
There goes her consolation.

It’s vanished amidst the chalcedony pillars.
Columns of strength which seem but oblivious to her frailty

Everything’s just screwed.
So many voices.
they’re screaming.
one voice one thing, another-
Another.

Everything’s a mirror to her.
All this mawkishness.
Everything’s just screwed.
It’s all messed up.
She cant see the cloud layers anymore.
She’s so screwed.

Everyone expects something.
Everyone demands something.
She cant win them all.
She knows this, but she cant even convince herself.
no conviction.
like how freaking pathetic can she get.

She’s this.
She’s that.
She’s this.
She’s that.
She’s this.
She's that.

She doesn’t know who she is anymore.
She used to.

Guess she listened other people too much.

It takes more to hold on to life than to end it.

She's guessing that's just irony.

maybe, just this once she's right,

it is.

you never read this.

I'm sorry. Everything that goes wrong, is my fault.

I'm just screwed.

i'm sorry to everyone whom i told i'd always be here for you.

just that i might not be anymore.

2007-02-03T12:34:00.000+08:00

It's all in the clouds;

the sunset which i caught after missing the one on thursday.
the clouds were thick and overcast, hence i couldnt see it after it set, which was pretty sad, but oh wells! the cloud shadows are cool.

the sunset i caught whilst on the chairlift at sentosa!
prettyy.
the whole sky was fiery, but not before turning shades of purple-pink (:

before it set! from the chairlift.
i like the way the sunlight glints of the sea.

from cloudwatching.
i think the cloud on the right's quite unique cos it's like pointy!
it looks like an angel fish to meeee.

the clouds i drew.
which took damn long.
it kinda looks like cotton wool, but ah.
clouds are cottony, yes?

so yea, my heads been in the clouds for quite awhile.
haha, i realised on friday that the school's rooftop netball court is good good for cloud watching.
i'll see if i still needa do clouds on wednesday.

updated my friendster photos, finallllyyyy.

and i've had For you I Will stuck in my head.

if i could dim the lights of the mall and creat a mood, i would.
shout out your name so it echos in every room.
yeaaa.

i think this is a lovely poem.really.

The Art of Poetry

To gaze at a river made of time and water
And remember Time is another river.
To know we stray like a river
and our faces vanish like water.

To feel that waking is another dream
that dreams of not dreaming and that the death
we fear in our bones is the death
that every night we call a dream.

To see in every day and year a symbol
of all the days of man and his years,
and convert the outrage of the years
into a music, a sound, and a symbol.

To see in death a dream, in the sunset
a golden sadness--such is poetry,
humble and immortal, poetry,
returning, like dawn and the sunset.

Sometimes at evening there's a face
that sees us from the deeps of a mirror.
Art must be that sort of mirror,
disclosing to each of us his face.

They say Ulysses, wearied of wonders,
wept with love on seeing Ithaca,
humble and green. Art is that Ithaca,
a green eternity, not wonders.

Art is endless like a river flowing,
passing, yet remaining, a mirror to the same
inconstant Heraclitus, who is the same
and yet another, like the river flowing.

Jorge Luis Borges

i feel so inspired now.

way to go.

2007-02-01T14:44:00.000+08:00

english test on friday i think.
essay!

yay (:
i love descriptive.
yayyyy.

my mood's better (:

dont know why.
ah.

got 24/30 for the first essay of the year.
that's a good start in my opinion (:
it was in class practise.
mmhmm.

the question was.
er, cant rmb exactly, but smth to do with describe a mall in singapore.

i can walk round vivo with my eyes closed.

i'm a very visual person.
i can picture things very well.

which prolly explains why i cry so easily.

cos when i see the thing in my head,
it's as though it's actually happening.
hence the tears.

yup.
i feel a heaven lot better.
the sun's shining.
i've always like sunlight.

i'mma do art now.

i'll blog again soon.
i needa thank a few people.

2007-02-01T14:21:00.000+08:00

best of both worlds.

de-stressing.

i couldnt find Lips of an Angel.

2007-02-01T14:03:00.000+08:00

Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?

2007-02-01T12:18:00.000+08:00

Everything's a blur;

It's amazing
How you can speak
Right to my heart
Without saying a word,
You can light up the dark
Try as I may
I could never explain
What I hear when
You don't say a thing

The smile on your face
Lets me know
That you need me
There's a truth
In your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me
Whenever I fall
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all

All day long
I can hear people
Talking out loud
But when you hold me near
You drown out the crowd
Try as they may
They can never define
What's been said
Between your
Heart and mine

on a random note.
i dont care.
think what you want to think.
just dont come up with things you dont know, or claim to.
cos it isnt true.
and it hurts.

QUOTE--
the past few days have been oh-so-tiring but very rewarding.
sec one orientation went very well, in my opinion.

it was really great.
really.

seeing sec one six blossom from quiet shy sec ones to enthusiastic class-ij-spirit filled youth made me feel so happy.
i figured it's cos i played a part in influencing the change.

and nothing else can cut close to the sense of achievement.

after the games, telematch the councillors cleaned up the whole basketball court.
it was then.
when everyone was scrubbing, splashing, carrying heavy bucket fulls of water.
using small pieces of sponge to rub off masses of flour whilst kneeling.
tired looks swept every face, and yet, no voices sounded complain.

it was then that i really understood the meaning of Servant Leadership.

tolerance contributed a whole lot.

it reminded me of obs.
when mad and i did the capsize drills, we were hence delayed and far far far away from the rest of the kayaking fleet.
the wind was against us.
we were so tired.
we were so exhausted.

but something just kept driving us on.

i cried whilst kayaking.
tears just streamed.

i was trying so hard.
and we didnt seem to be making any progress.
it really seemed as though the waves, the sea was testing us.
testing our perseverance.
testing to see when we'd cave in.

but we didnt.
i was crying.
i wanted to give up.

i cant do it.
i cant.
i'm so tired.
i'm cying.
mad! cant you see we're not moving! paddle!

that's what i told myself.
it was just so hard.
i cried beacause i was trying so hard.
and yet, couldnt succeed.

we kayaked for half an hour against the wind.
half an hour of crying.
crying and convincing myself, NO. Samantha, dont say you cant do it.
you can.

i was saying i couldnt do it.
yet trying to mentally convince myself that i could.

it was an experience i will never forget.

i pushed myself.
so much.
when we finally reached the fleet.

i cried even more.

because mad and i managed to do it.

no number of words can really fully describe how i felt while kayaking.
i'll remember the tears that's all i can say.
cos they taught me perseverance.

and when i was scrubbing the floor with the long brushing thing,
i felt that again.

that kayaking thing.

and this time.
i didnt cry.

cos i knew i had the strength to do it.
the strength to get through it.

and hey, i did.

it wasnt some hard task or anything, and i prolly sound silly typing this.
but i was just tired. and pmsing.

YEAH.

and seeing a clean basketball court.
was exactly like catching up with the fleet.

servant leadership cant be learnt from a textbook.
it's experienced.

and cleaning up after the games, made me realise.
it's not about expecting people to respect you or thinking 'nvm la, someone ELSE will do it'.
it's about gaining that respect yourself.
by example.

it's cos when you've gained it, that you'll realise you've succeeded.

no one else is going to make the change that you want to see or take credit for.
you've got to do that yourself.

you've got to do it yourself.

respect is earned.
not granted or given.

and you've got to earn it yourself.

mhmmm.
that's what the sec one orientation helped me realise.
and servant leadership.
it's leading by example.

at the end of the day, you learn something from what you've gone through.

Storms make trees take deeper roots.

looong post coming up.

please dont say anything if this post is awful emo.
i'm sick of writing letters.
cos when i read them again, it just makes me feel worst.

woke up this morning feeling really groggy and awful.
dont know why.

felt really bad.
and yet didnt feel exactly sick.

so i'm staying home.
i need time, i guess.

maybe i know why.
but i dont want it to be the reason.
that's why i say i dont know.

and maybe maybe that's the same reason.

maybe.

i cant say what i want to anymore.
and i want things the way they were.

but it's ruined now.
it's like our butterfly flew away.

and you say i'm not helping you catch it.

guess i had it all wrong all along.

i didnt want it this way.

i said.
i couldnt keep this up.
and i meant that.

i was always the one hanging.
you always knew what i meant.
and i meant it.
everytime.

i meant it everytime.

what's there inside you, shines through to me.

it's like nothing matters to you anymore.

all you ever said.

it's almost as though you're forcing yourself not to care.

you always knew what i meant.

and i meant it.

i always did.

i'm sorry you cant say the same.

THANKS.

you said you didnt care.

at the very least i hope my care means something.
cos i know it does.

i cant sing this without crying.

in a perfect world, one we've never known.
we would never need. to face the world, alone.
they can have their world, we'll create our own.
i may not be brave, or strong or smart,
but somewhere in my secret heart,
i know,
love will find a way.
anywhere i go, i'm home.
if you are there beside me, like dark,
turning into day, somehow we'll pull through,
now that i've found you, love will a way.

i was so afraid, nwo i realise, love is never wrong, and so it never dies.
there's a perfect world, shining in your eyes.
and if only they could feel it too, the happiness i feel in you.

2007-01-31T21:53:00.000+08:00

maybe i was pmsing a few days ago.

i suddenly feel like shit for a truckload of reasons.

i'm once again amazed at ignorance.

gosh i'm random.

thanks everyone.
you know who you are.
i really appreciate it.

2007-01-31T21:15:00.000+08:00

blank.

the past few nights havent exacty been the best.

i asked myself so many questions.
questions that i couldnt answer.
questions you couldnt or wouldnt answer.

things that confused me, hurt me.
words that i didnt understand.
things i couldnt believe,
and yet, had to accept.

it's times like these that make me feel like a crumpled sheet of paper.

and the phonecall.thanks a heaven lot.
I'M AWESOME.

sighs,
i was like, self inflicting pain.

it's how smth makes you happy, and yet sad.
and it's up to you to decide which is more, i guess.
before i slept i realised a lot of things you said made sense,
thanks for giving me strength.

moving on,
it felt like God was trying to speak to me today.

in many ways.

some people might think i'm just being crappy.
but, oh well.

first, for english, we did an article from TIME magazine on the love lives of teenage boys.
to sum, up the article, it was about a research done by a sociologist who found out that teenage boys are actually as sensitive as girls.
a few funny statements popped up here and there.
a few sentences that happened to make sense and apply to me.

She also wanted to know if he really meant it.

it finally came to the question--
Does the sensitive teenage boy exist?

and the first person Mrs Alex asked was Samantha Branson.
who said after a short pause.

YES, but boys rarely show it.
due to their --- (i didnt know how to put it cos i didnt want to generalize)
chorus answer, MALE EGOOOOO.

it seems as if popular culture us waking up to the reality of the emotionally sensitive male.

so yea.

then after recess, religious education, we talked a bit on Vocation.
then came the question--
How will you know whether you love someone enough to get married?

and mrs tan asked me.

'you're samantha, right? what do you think?'

and i'm like.

i think you'll know when you understand his flaws, and more importantly, accept them.

and she's like
'YES!VERY IMPORTANT. blah blah blah.'

and everyone's like, 'WAHHHH, SAMMMM how you know ah!'

then we had to do a survey on What love is and ISN'T.
and we had to tick qualities we'd look for in a potential ...

God's really trying to say something.

then after school, there's art.
art's my form of destressing really.
i love art.

i worked on my clouds for the whole four hours.
i'm rather happy with how they turned out.

sat on the same chair, use dtexture paste, then colour pencil.
shined the spotlight on it while colouring.
i like.

took a few photographs.
latest to leave, as usual!

got home, had dinner, and here i am now.

for those who're wondering, i'm fine.
or maybe, that's just what i'm telling myself.
you know how you think of smth so much cos you hope it'll happen.

it's like that.

it's like, AH.
i know i know,
No, I dont.

i cant keep hanging on.
i cant keep being left wandering, left lost.

i never gave up on you.
you did.

i sacrificed a lot.
there's no amount of words that can express how i felt, feel, will feel.

it's just not the same.

no prize for guesses why.

2007-01-29T22:50:00.001+08:00

THANK YOU one six!
-joyce, mei ting, brenda, hanna, steffi and all else who made today special.

i really appreciate what you'll have done (:
i'll remember you when i use the file !

(((:
take care, always.

2007-01-29T22:29:00.000+08:00

When things in your lives seem almost too much to handle,
when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and
the 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had
some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked
up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with
golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed
that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.The pebbles rolled into the
open areas between the

golf balls . He then asked the students again if the jar
was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured
it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked
once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous
"yes."

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under
the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling
the empty space between the sand. The students laughed. "Now,"
said the professor as the laughter subsided,

"I want you to recognize that this jar represents
your life. The golf balls are the important things--your family, your children,
your health, your friends and your favorite passions--and if everything
else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your
job, your house and your car.

The sand is everything else--the small stuff.

"If you
put the sand into the jar first," he continued,
"there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.
If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have
room for the things that are important to you.
"Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play with your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your spouse out to dinner.
Play another 18.
There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.
Take care of the golf balls first--the things that really matter.
Set your
priorities.
The rest is just sand."

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what
the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked.
It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's
always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

I'm gonna do this one day.

2007-01-29T22:21:00.000+08:00

i'm sucha retard really !

hahaha, shucks.

yes yes, i need ice-cream !

short post ! i dont feel like typing, so yea !

2007-01-28T15:27:00.002+08:00

ah, i think i'm gonna be late !
rushrushrush.

confusion has no colour;

2007-01-28T14:06:00.000+08:00

confusion has no colour;

yay, did random art for over half an hour--points at the photo above. it's texture paint, with colour pencils over it.

anyways! ytd,
my computer crashed !
Daddy got it back running in a day though.

mmhmm.
friday and saturday weren't much.

today isnt either, but i shouldn't speak too soon cos there's eugene, ian, john paul, audrey and desiree's confi at six tonight.
see y'all.

yeah.

i'm HAPPY !
edwinaaaa is sucha genius!

both the edwins i know are !
LOL.
yayyyy.

at first i couldnt see like a heaven lot of blogs.
then edwina told me to go download java and VOILA.
now i can!
YAY.
thanks!

and hi edwin ! ----

for the cd DVD too!
THANKS AGAIN ! - the 32470274th thank you is for the extreme amount of effort it took you to convert it to a dvd AND for all the other converting a vcd to a dvd stuff it required! THANK YOU !

and i've got new skirts from my aunt (:
Mango, Guess and Abercrombie&Fitch (:

YAY.

there're two white skirts and one lime green (:
mmhmm.

i'm gonna be getting ready to leave soon.
why do i predict i'll be late.
i wonder.

HAHA, cloud watching !

2007-01-25T21:37:00.000+08:00

school was good.
peer support finally session was good.
late lunch was good.
bus ride was good.

generally, today was good.

yea,
ah.
the cuppycake song's so cute laaaaa dear.
mmhmm (:

i love you so and i want you to know that i'll always be right here ! HAHAHA.

gonna call in 20 mins !
mmhmm.

the smile on your face let's me know that you need me;
there's a truth in your eyes saying youll never leave me.

there's chess tmr !
dont give me a hard time please--
my tolerance level is steadily decreasing :/

gotta gooo (:
this post is shortttt.

haha, ah, who cares!

2007-01-24T20:58:00.000+08:00

YOU make my world seem perfect, really (:

I'm so cool, i can let a million people cut the queue.
I'm so cool, i cant say no when my friends ask me to buy food.
I'm so cool, i cant wear my belt.
I'm so cool, i dont know what a queue is.
I'm so cool, cutting queues is my hobby.
I'm so cool, i think cutting queues is fun!
I'm so cool.
really.

no, really.

i'm like.
W T F.

cant they do anything else!
like seriously.
if it's helping one or two friends buy food.
but a whole group of five or six.
i'm like.

THERE'S A QUEUE FOR A REASON YOU KNOW.

and she gives me this i'm-so-cool,-i-dont-know-what-a-queue-is-and-i-dont-care look.
and cuts the queue.

like where's your courtesy.

i got majorly ticked off.
SERIOUSLY.

anyways.
rest of the day was slack, as usual.
wednesday's slack day.
i mean, it's english english maths maths malay recess religiouos ed religious ed pc assembly.
oh, and art (:

pretty much found a direction.
pretty much magritte inspired, but hey, surrealists are cool.

mmhmm (:

nothing much else, so yeah, my birthday !
THANKS to everyone who wished me! via sms, phone call or with a hug!
(:
thanks to those who wrote on the giant black paper (: it was really sweet !

yea.

birthdat dinner was good (:
vept for the fact that there was a cockroach on the top of the cab.
and i survived the ride with it.

AMAZING.

came home, slacked.

mhmmm!
yea.
nothing much else to type now.
i've got hist research and geog work to do.
but i left hist in school. HURR.

you're BUSYYYY (:

HAHA,
i've got random songs stuck in my head.

in my dreams i'll always see you soar above the sky. in my heart there'll always be a place for you, for all my life.

in these eyes, more than words, more than anything that i've spoken.. as they skies, turn to gray, my heart's just a bout to crack open. so the story goes. there's something you should know, before i walk away and i blow the ending.

words're swaying, someone is praying please let us come home to stay.

coming for the lips of an angel, hearing those words it makes me weep.

the smile on your face let's me know that you need me, there's a truth in your eyes, saying you'll never leave me.

art always makes me happy, like you (:

2007-01-22T23:20:00.001+08:00

Imma be sweeeet sixteen in 40 minutes.

((((((:

2007-01-22T21:56:00.000+08:00

panty hose infringes on leg space. hurr hurr.

2007-01-22T21:11:00.000+08:00

YOU GET THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS.

school!

haha, photo taking. ind. shots got postponed.
i'm blasting hannah montana now.
it's such a cure song.

i broke down today.
in the council room after chess.
couldnt take it i guess.

responsibilities do run you down loadsa times.
i guess it's then you gotta realise that's what it's all about. going against the current.

special thanks to Sarah, Sean and Mike.

you prolly know how insecure i feel sometimes.
and yeaaa. reassurance and care helps.
really. even just a hug.

thanks.

i'll update the previous post another day.
THANKS edwin.
and that picture of me with my hands on my hips is like. AH, WTH.
no shape la.
i hate looking fat when i'm not.

it's like ah, NVM.

You get the best of both worlds
Chill it out, take it slow
Then you rock out the show
You get the best of both worlds
Mix it all together
And you know that it's the best of both worlds

2007-01-21T14:19:00.001+08:00

great company (:
as always.
party was fun (:

haha, how could it not be with ij girls and nat and the usual sji guys around !

haha, SUMMARY--i'm gonna photoh blog after this sooo yea.

su anne and mad were the first to arrive, and they helped me blow balloons to put along the staircase. HAHA, it was so funny. we put sixteen balloons and wrote numbers one to sixteen on them. each with a random fact or smth.
LOL. so funny.

they played volleyball with a balloon, till more people arrived.

talked a lot. melvin was the first guy to arrive !
hahaha, funny !

then by eight plus everyone was here!
talked a lot, at, drank, made a whole lotta noise, played x-box.

photos coming up!

balloons on the staircase! (:

ALOT OF BAGS!

CHESS board birthday cake ! with playing pieces too!

SHAPELESS ! hurr.

ian and edwin and a green balloon. the camera shy. haha.

nat and john paul being FUNNY.

the girls (:

me and CHARMED.

i told you it was gross.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY (:

i didnt write this sign !
p.s. the stuck it right outside the lifts on the 21st floor.

that's the dress i was talking bout (: the one i wanted.
nice or not?

it was raining ! see la neighbour.
ask for rain somemore.

smells SO GOOD.

presents (:

Charmed, kirsten, kenneth and marty ! they're gonna take over my bed. seriously.

they were tired!
after sji i camp la. mhmmm!

so yeah, it was a great sweet sixteen party (:

edwin, john paul and marcus left last at 11.50! HAHA, so funny ! jp and neighbour were walking at my house carpark and could see me waving from my room window. FUNNY !
could really see them la!
HAHA, funny!

my bed's gonna get taken over by soft toys!
HAHA (:
thanks guys for the stuff!

charmed, kirsten, kenneth and marty ! (((:

and loadsa other stuff!
thanks shirin and jess for the bubble bath and glittery nail file ! LOVE THEM.
and nat for the piggy mag ! (:

2007-01-16T17:39:00.000+08:00

the physics test was easy.
i had trouble with it and hence concluded that i'm gonna flunk it, cos i didnt study.

SS test was good. not enough time though. screw the last question.

nothing much happened today.

after school at the interchange was funny.
this guy was like convincing one of amanda's choir juniors not to donate.
it was hilarious.

and i'm not exactly in the blogging mood, as you prolly can tell.

it's a bright sunny day today.
it feels so happy!

two of my aunties said they'd get me a dress (((:
-grins.

so it's dress shopping with mummy on thurs.
supposed to go today, but she said she's tired and she was whining on the phone.
haha, funny.

so thursday !
(((((:

ooh, i cant wait.

shopping :D

Imagine if you were stalin, and you couldnt get the power you wanted and you were unhappy.
what'd you do?

-sam says shopping (:

HAHAHA.

i shall describe the dress.

it's like gray with a round neck line.
it's loose and flairy after the waist.
and it's high waisted.
the top looks like this, and the colour's like this,

it's high waisted though, unlike in this pict.
and it's sleeved, but not three quarter sleeved as in this pict.
it's rather minimalistic to me.
like solid colour and simpla design.
(:

as for the other dress, i'm gonna shop (:
havent decided what to get, but prolly one of those printed lycra material ones (:
they fit well, and suit me so HAHA, get la.

mhmm.
i'm anticipating it'll look fab with one of those thick belts.
which i've always wanted.
haha, they make me look slimmmmmm (:
teehee.

oh oh oh, i changed my parting to more side.
so that the people who insist that my hair is centre parting cant pick a fight.

and i thought i was going out with mummy today so i conditioned the front side fringe.
ah, it's bigger now, so it's like so flickable.
i like it when i falls over my right eye (:
except during geog when i'm trying to copy what mrs kunna's writing on the board, then it gets annoying.
and when i'm wearing lipgloss and my hair touches my lips.
mmhmm.

oh, shopping.
window shopping works toooo.

TOPSHOP (:
ACCESSORIZE!
FOREVER21

yup.
ah, why do i fortell that i'm gonna be suaned during my birthday !

anyways!
i finished reading Tuesdays with Morrie.

made me realise a whole lotta things, and yes, i did cry.
no i didnt cry when watching Day after tomorrow.

i dont know how it feels to lose a loved one.
and i guess one day i'm gonna experience it.

God give me strength.

eh, i dont know what i want for my birthday.
really.
staedtler 36 colour watercolour pencil set (:
click to see the link.

which i really want (:

i think some ppl are combining.
cos it costs quite a bit.
ah, there's a sixty colour set.
i think they're getting the 36 though (:
though i wouldnt mind topping up the extra cash and getting the 60 or 48. LOLS.
might as well whattt.

another thing i'm wishing for ( i want sounds so spoilt bratty)
the ty plushie unicorn!

Charmed the Unicorn

Click on link to view, photobucket's down at the moment la.click on the left side name to view the plushie (:

AH.
it's got like pink and purple splotches.
it's twenty bucks i think.
and they've got it at Precious Thots.
haha, i squealed when i saw it.
LOLLL.

anyways! dinner calls.
ah, my hair's dry (:

who popped my bubble.

and drank my soap solution.

2007-01-15T21:02:00.000+08:00

;dont scream till i cant hear you.

today's normal.

got a little annoyed today.

you la, darling (:

anyways.

caught someone today!
And we didnt plan to even.

amazing.

wah.
it's freeeeezing now.

MMHMM.

Hapyy unbirthday to everyone!
HAHA,
oh.
i've recently reached the conclusion that Alice in Wonderland is a rather freaaaky disney movie.
the cheshire cat is eeee. scary.

and ah. i cant believe i spelt accomModation wrongly!

anyways! more on the weekend (:

High Tea at Goodwood Park Hotel.
Heidi's one month baby shower!

and Far East! shopping!

ahhhh.
the nice dress!
edwin knows!
and sean!
and amanda.
HAHAHA.

and let's see who else i'll tell.
i tell people stuff when i'm bored.
so when i start talking to you bout smth random like say my first trip to the zoo, then hey! i'm bored.

three free periods in a row.
wrote a letter for like two periods.

OOOH, it's a good one.
like a good one.
i wrote so nicely la, my hand almost died. oh wait, actually. it did.

it's as good as a blog post.
it's about.
i-dont-care-if-you've-been-waiting-at-the-same-spot-for-fifteen-minutes-i'm-walking-a-few metres-in-front-of-you-and-conveniently-stealing-your-cab-cos-i-want-a-cab-and-i-want-it-now-! people.
like HELLO. Courtesy much?

AH. so annoying.
MAJORLY.

and i guess writing letters is a way of talking to myself cum reflecting.
HO YEAH.

well.
thanks to the dreary cold weather which neighbour LIKES, my fingers're FROZEN.

gotta stoooop typing now.

oh wait. my diet isnt working.
parents and friends're making it hard !

mmhmm.
anyways.
okay, i'm not THAT fat la.
wahhh, my abs're damn hard today! after MOS.
haha, right amanda ! (((:
teehee.

ah. i realised.
if i join the Arena.
SHUCKS!
i'd be shooting down the opponent.
strong-willed?
not easily swayed?
cos i think i'm always right?
HAHA,
GOD KNOWS.

like HELLOOO.
Mother Teresa was so not self centred.
and i shouldnt have to prove that.

and if mother teresa's one person, (she is btw, albeit she's passed on)
you cant say EVERYONE'S SELF-CENTRED.
cos that's just like you honey.

nah, not sweet.
stupid.

OOHHH, bitchy.

since we're on the topic.
no one should ever make you feel inferior without your permission.
and just cos many people have a particular opinion, it doesnt mean it's true.
more so if there's one person out there who KNOWS it isnt true.
hey, the opinions of others ain't gonna change what actually is.
not now, not ever.
so long as i live.

SO THERE.
go figure.

it's one of those days.

i like like like this poem (:

she's stealing;
in the silence of the day
she skips between every orange sunray

claiming what isn’t hers.

The purple underbellies of the watching clouds played witness;
They let her.

They let her kiss their puddles of rainwater,
As she flirted to gain the rainbow’s trust.

The gentle raindrops ignored her quickened pace.
As she stole.

As she stole with such stealth.
The wind himself could not catch her.

The crashing waves covered her trail.
The blemishes in the turquoise tide, ignorant of her presence

The soft summer breeze let her slip past.
Even as the branches of trees stretched their hands to catch her,
The leaves whispered words of encouragement to her.

She’s stealing;
In the tranquil of the night.
She skips between every gossamer moonbeam.

She tears apart the night sky,
Seeking to claim what isn’t hers.

Yet the silver moonlight lets her go on.
The tears of the sky catch but a glimpse of her.

She took what isn’t hers.
And there’s no one to stop her.
she's stealing;
she’s already stolen my smile.

RSVP by tmr please! SMS me.
edwin!-it'd be LOVELY if you collaborated ((((:
i dont like coooold weather. so dismal! and saddening. HURR !

random: higher life forms to lower life forms. OMG. sji to ij.
ahhhh mr tan.

2007-01-12T21:20:00.000+08:00

sam's a stressed student with a throbbing headache. so whats new?

it's one of those throbbing headache's.
that makes me feel like i've got a fever.
that makes me feel like crying.
that makes me feel awfully stressed.
and my mind seems to mutilply my current state of stress by like 100.

I'd like to think it's the weather.

school was alright.
rained practically the WHOLE day.

yea. i hate cold weather.
it's so rainy.

it gives this whole aura of dismality (if there's sucha word) and it's seems so sordid.
it's like.
imagine a homeless little girl lost in the streets and it starts raining.
and she gets drenched.

that's how rain seems to me.

it reminds me of Annie.

when you're stuck with a day, that's gray and lonely.
i just stick up my chin, and grin and say oh,
the sun'll come out, tmr.
so you gotta hang on till tmr.

yea, so it's pretty much like that for me.

i was always more of a sunny person.
it's not called sunny disposition for nothing.
sunlight always seems so much happier and more cheery!
i mean, there isnt sucha thing as a rainy disposition.
double standards.

yea.
there's cca day tmr.
i hope recruitment will turn out well.
i mean, who doesnt?

i hope it gets sunny.

rainy days just turn my mood down by half.
or wait, more tha half.

rainy days are the days that i cry the most easily.
dont know.
it's just me?

maybe cos you're busy now dear.

if i read The Dreamwalker's Child now, i'd prolly cry.
it's the first and only book i've ever cried whilst reading.

it's when this young girl realises she's the cause of her whole family's deaths cos of her innocence.
it's really sad.
she was playing on a frozen lake, chasing a blue butterfly. and the ice was too thin in the middle.
and yeah.
it cracked whilst her parents were trying to save her.

and how her teacher in this other dimnesion tells her--

Just because something changes, it doesnt mean that it is lost. Like melting snow, it simply becomes something else. Love cannot be destroyed. The things that matter will stay with you always.

yea.

i'm so tired.
i hate the weather.

it gives this whole aura of dismality (if there's sucha word) and it's seems so sordid.
it's like.
imagine a homeless little girl lost in the streets and it starts raining.
and she gets drenched.

that's how rain seems to me.

it's like no one's there.

2007-01-10T22:45:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA, LOSERS get special mention on my blog (:

HELLO LOSER (:

HAHA, OMG LOSERRRRRR.
ahhhhhhhh.

you drive me crazy you knowwwww.
(:

loves.

2007-01-10T21:54:00.001+08:00

school was good.
pledge wasnt half bad.
miss teo and mrs matthew's were rather encouraging.

(:

geog was FUNNY.
HEEHEE.
will blog more tmr!

and art was best.

went through the themes.
I'm pretty sure i'm gonna do Unusual Perspectives, which i chose over At Play which was the other theme that i didnt rule out.

yeah.

i'm not gonna blog bout my concept just yet, though if you wanna know, HAHA, ask me or smth.

Gifts comm for the invest finished painting all 25 pieces.
OMG.
so happy.
they look AWESOME.

cant believe we managed to finish the paint and glitter on all 25 in like 4+ hours.
so AWESOME.

and i'm a happy girl.
cos i've finally found my direction with regards to the O level AEP themes -grins.

happy happy.

Now i just need the visual rep.
and artist influence.
i already figured that out. soooo.
i'll be in the art studio during my two free chem periods tmr.

kinda cant wait to get started.
though i flipped when i found out we have to get half of our eight prep boards due by MARCH.
yes, that's less than two months.

ah.
JIA YOU.

and i kinda realised i only have Obssesive Compulsive Disorder (OCD; like when you arrange all the stationery in your pencilcase in the same direction -HEH, like MAGDALENE LIM) for ART.
haha, it's like.
i cannot stand using rolled up art block,
crumpled art paper- even if it's just the corners,
art paper with black finger prints
and WORST OF ALL if it's folded.
and i cant stand seeing the pencil marks even after i've erased smth.

yeah, i'm randomly weird.

I'm Samantha Branson (:

and i guess i'm a whole unusual perspective myself.

HO HO HO.
one of my sec one juniors from my DEAR DARLING psl class 1/6 just messaged me and she's like--

So how's your love life??everyone in 1/6 is talking bout it.....lol....haha :D

and i'm like REALLY !
HAHAHA.

i'm not attached!
AH, why's it so hard to convince people.

LOL.
AH, who cares.

2007-01-10T21:54:00.000+08:00