go figure.
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9:02 PM
Friday, January 12, 2007
sam's a stressed student with a throbbing headache. so whats new?
it's one of those throbbing headache's.
that makes me feel like i've got a fever.
that makes me feel like crying.
that makes me feel awfully stressed.
and my mind seems to mutilply my current state of stress by like 100.
I'd like to think it's the weather.
school was alright.
rained practically the WHOLE day.
yea. i hate cold weather.
it's so rainy.
it gives this whole aura of dismality (if there's sucha word) and it's seems so sordid.
it's like.
imagine a homeless little girl lost in the streets and it starts raining.
and she gets drenched.
that's how rain seems to me.
it reminds me of Annie.
when you're stuck with a day, that's gray and lonely.
i just stick up my chin, and grin and say oh,
the sun'll come out, tmr.
so you gotta hang on till tmr.
yea, so it's pretty much like that for me.
i was always more of a sunny person.
it's not called sunny disposition for nothing.
sunlight always seems so much happier and more cheery!
i mean, there isnt sucha thing as a rainy disposition.
double standards.
yea.
there's cca day tmr.
i hope recruitment will turn out well.
i mean, who doesnt?
i hope it gets sunny.
rainy days just turn my mood down by half.
or wait, more tha half.
rainy days are the days that i cry the most easily.
dont know.
it's just me?
maybe cos you're busy now dear.
if i read The Dreamwalker's Child now, i'd prolly cry.
it's the first and only book i've ever cried whilst reading.
it's when this young girl realises she's the cause of her whole family's deaths cos of her innocence.
it's really sad.
she was playing on a frozen lake, chasing a blue butterfly. and the ice was too thin in the middle.
and yeah.
it cracked whilst her parents were trying to save her.
and how her teacher in this other dimnesion tells her--
Just because something changes, it doesnt mean that it is lost. Like melting snow, it simply becomes something else. Love cannot be destroyed. The things that matter will stay with you always.
yea.
i'm so tired.
i hate the weather.
it gives this whole aura of dismality (if there's sucha word) and it's seems so sordid.
it's like.
imagine a homeless little girl lost in the streets and it starts raining.
and she gets drenched.
that's how rain seems to me.
it's like no one's there.
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9:20 PM
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
HAHAHA, LOSERS get special mention on my blog (:HELLO LOSER (:HAHA, OMG LOSERRRRRR.ahhhhhhhh.you drive me crazy you knowwwww.(:loves.
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10:45 PM
school was good.
pledge wasnt half bad.
miss teo and mrs matthew's were rather encouraging.
(:
geog was FUNNY.
HEEHEE.
will blog more tmr!
and art was best.
went through the themes.
I'm pretty sure i'm gonna do Unusual Perspectives, which i chose over At Play which was the other theme that i didnt rule out.
yeah.
i'm not gonna blog bout my concept just yet, though if you wanna know, HAHA, ask me or smth.
Gifts comm for the invest finished painting all 25 pieces.
OMG.
so happy.
they look AWESOME.
cant believe we managed to finish the paint and glitter on all 25 in like 4+ hours.
so AWESOME.
and i'm a happy girl.
cos i've finally found my direction with regards to the O level AEP themes -grins.
happy happy.
Now i just need the visual rep.
and artist influence.
i already figured that out. soooo.
i'll be in the art studio during my two free chem periods tmr.
kinda cant wait to get started.
though i flipped when i found out we have to get half of our eight prep boards due by MARCH.
yes, that's less than two months.
ah.
JIA YOU.
and i kinda realised i only have Obssesive Compulsive Disorder (OCD; like when you arrange all the stationery in your pencilcase in the same direction -HEH, like MAGDALENE LIM) for ART.
haha, it's like.
i cannot stand using rolled up art block,
crumpled art paper- even if it's just the corners,
art paper with black finger prints
and WORST OF ALL if it's folded.
and i cant stand seeing the pencil marks even after i've erased smth.
yeah, i'm randomly weird.I'm Samantha Branson (:
and i guess i'm a whole unusual perspective myself.
HO HO HO.
one of my sec one juniors from my DEAR DARLING psl class 1/6 just messaged me and she's like--
So how's your love life??everyone in 1/6 is talking bout it.....lol....haha :D
and i'm like REALLY !
HAHAHA.
i'm not attached!
AH, why's it so hard to convince people.
LOL.
AH, who cares.
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9:54 PM
school was good.pledge wasnt half bad.miss teo and mrs matthew's were rather encouraging.(:geog was FUNNY.HEEHEE.will blog more tmr!and art was best.went through the themes.I'm pretty sure i'm gonna do Unusual Perspectives, which i chose over At Play which was the other theme that i didnt rule out.yeah.i'm not gonna blog bout my concept just yet, though if you wanna know, HAHA, ask me or smth.Gifts comm for the invest finished painting all 25 pieces.OMG.so happy.they look AWESOME.cant believe we managed to finish the paint and glitter on all 25 in like 4+ hours.so AWESOME.and i'm a happy girl.cos i've finally found my direction with regards to the O level AEP themes -grins.happy happy.Now i just need the visual rep.and artist influence.i already figured that out. soooo.i'll be in the art studio during my two free chem periods tmr.kinda cant wait to get started.though i flipped when i found out we have to get half of our eight prep boards due by MARCH.yes, that's less than two months.ah.JIA YOU.and i kinda realised i only have Obssesive Compulsive Disorder (OCD; like when you arrange all the stationery in your pencilcase in the same direction -HEH, like MAGDALENE LIM) for ART.haha, it's like.i cannot stand using rolled up art block,crumpled art paper- even if it's just the corners,art paper with black finger printsand WORST OF ALL if it's folded.and i cant stand seeing the pencil marks even after i've erased smth.yeah, i'm randomly weird.I'm Samantha Branson (:and i guess i'm a whole unusual perspective myself.HO HO HO. one of my sec one juniors from my DEAR DARLING psl class 1/6 just messaged me and she's like--So how's your love life??everyone in 1/6 is talking bout it.....lol....haha :Dand i'm like REALLY !HAHAHA.i'm not attached!AH, why's it so hard to convince people.LOL.AH, who cares.
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9:54 PM
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
I'm gonna turn sixteen in exactly two weeks from now.
OMG.(:anyways.this post is gonna be random.YEA.WAH.thanks a lot neighbour!ah, the mint and orange chocolate is like SO GOOD.seriously.oh, and last night.there was a cockroach in my room!OMG.yeah.i screamed till Daddy found it and killed it.i bet i wouldnt have been able to sleep if he hadnt found it.it was living in my guitar.OMG.EW EW EW EW EW.HAHA,IAN suggested kissing and holding a cockroach to get rid of my fear.HAHAHA, like that's ever gonna happen!OMG.the thought of it.AH.art!i'm having art tmr.and art makes me happy.well, actually alot of things make me happy!come come.let me list them all.AHA, shit. i feel retarded.it's like damn funny la.Like the time i accidentely sprayed fixative on my arm during the FY art exam.and i was like ACCIDENTELY!and mike's like, How'd i know!You're Samantha Branson!HAHA.mmhmm!well here goes!-ART (it helps me destress, ironically)-HORSES-PHONECALLS from people i rarely see-LOSERRRRRR (:-SUN!-SMILES.-DANNY PHANTOM-SHOPPING-CHOIR-THE MASSING CLIQUE (:-MILK TEA-ANYTHING RANDOMah, i swear, one day my randomness is gonna get me killed.half way during class and i'm like.OMG, you know, next week we're changing time tables!HAHAHA, funny.i'm funny!LOL.We're funny.You're funny.OKAAAAY.getting lame!excuse the lousy lagging posts, i needa concentrate on schoolwork too.HO YEAHHH.let's not go there.
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6:51 PM
SCHOOOOOOOOL.we finally got the art themes!
they're quite alright, though i find it ironic that miss low tells us that the teachers are sick of seeing the cliche flowers and butterfly skecthes and a the theme- Flora and Fauna pops up.
The themes given are rather directed. and rather developed.
havent decided what i'm gonna do.
i'm already stressing over the fact that the VAT is due in March.
The add math test.
haha, shant talk bout it since some ppl havent taken it yet.
i'm on pledge duty for the next three days..
rain sounds good to me now.
HAHA.
haha, just a note--
i'm very much single.
LOL.
english lessons are gonna be good.
we're doing descriptive essays now.
which as far as i'm concerned is my strength when it comes to essays.
yeah.
AHHH.
i was freaked before the add maths test.
HO YEAAAAH.
yup.
it's stuck in my head! AH SHUCKS.
it's a lovely song.
where are we?
what the hell is going on?
the dust has only just begun to form
crop circles in the carpet
sinking, feeling
spin me 'round again
and rub my eyes,
this can't be happening
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy
hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
all those years
they were here first
oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before the takeover,
the sweeping insensitivity of this still life
hide and seek
trains and sewing machines (you won't catch me around here)
blood and tears
they were here first
Mmmm what d'ya say,
Mmmm that you only meant well?
well of course you did
Mmmm what d'ya say,
Mmmm that's all for the best?
of course it is
Mmmm what d'ya say?
Mmmm that it's just what we need
you decided this
Mmmm what d'ya say?
Mmmm what did she say?
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
midsweet talk, newspaper word cut outs
speak no feeling
no I don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a bit
(hide and seek)
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
midsweet talk, newspaper word cut outs
(hide and seek)
speak no feeling
no, I don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a bit
(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
oh no, you don't care a bit
(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit
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6:42 PM
Sunday, January 07, 2007
I'm asking myself the same question again.
Could I ever ?
your song; it's getting to me.and that's just how it is.
it's like.
you want to throw smth away,
and yet you can't.
and that feeling's awful.
cos it makes you feel like some schizo.
confusing.
AH, WTH.
forget it.
I'm fine.no, really.the sweeping insensitivity of this still life.
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5:16 PM
reflective post coming up.
the past few days have been oh-so-tiring but very rewarding.
sec one orientation went very well, in my opinion.
it was really great.
really.
seeing sec one six blossom from quiet shy sec ones to enthusiastic class-ij-spirit filled youth made me feel so happy.
i figured it's cos i played a part in influencing the change.
and nothing else can cut close to the sense of achievement.
after the games, telematch the councillors cleaned up the whole basketball court.
it was then.
when everyone was scrubbing, splashing, carrying heavy bucket fulls of water.
using small pieces of sponge to rub off masses of flour whilst kneeling.tired looks swept every face, and yet, no voices sounded complain.it was then that i really understood the meaning of Servant Leadership.tolerance contributed a whole lot.it reminded me of obs.when mad and i did the capsize drills, we were hence delayed and far far far away from the rest of the kayaking fleet.the wind was against us.we were so tired.we were so exhausted.but something just kept driving us on.i cried whilst kayaking.tears just streamed.i was trying so hard.and we didnt seem to be making any progress.it really seemed as though the waves, the sea was testing us.testing our perseverance.testing to see when we'd cave in.but we didnt.i was crying.i wanted to give up.i cant do it.i cant.i'm so tired.i'm cying.mad! cant you see we're not moving! paddle!that's what i told myself.it was just so hard.i cried beacause i was trying so hard.and yet, couldnt succeed.we kayaked for half an hour against the wind.half an hour of crying.crying and convincing myself, NO. Samantha, dont say you cant do it.you can.i was saying i couldnt do it.yet trying to mentally convince myself that i could.it was an experience i will never forget.i pushed myself.so much.when we finally reached the fleet.i cried even more.because mad and i managed to do it.no number of words can really fully describe how i felt while kayaking.i'll remember the tears that's all i can say.cos they taught me perseverance.and when i was scrubbing the floor with the long brushing thing,i felt that again.that kayaking thing.and this time.i didnt cry.cos i knew i had the strength to do it.the strength to get through it.and hey, i did.it wasnt some hard task or anything, and i prolly sound silly typing this.but i was just tired. and pmsing.YEAH.and seeing a clean basketball court.was exactly like catching up with the fleet.servant leadership cant be learnt from a textbook.it's experienced.and cleaning up after the games, made me realise.it's not about expecting people to respect you or thinking 'nvm la, someone ELSE will do it'.it's about gaining that respect yourself.by example.it's cos when you've gained it, that you'll realise you've succeeded.no one else is going to make the change that you want to see or take credit for.you've got to do that yourself.you've got to do it yourself.respect is earned.not granted or given.and you've got to earn it yourself.mhmmm.that's what the sec one orientation helped me realise.and servant leadership.it's leading by example.at the end of the day, you learn something from what you've gone through.Storms make trees take deeper roots.
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4:08 PM
Thursday, January 04, 2007
ah ah ah.
i love my one six grp three! (:
they're good.
and guai and participative.
and SO CUTE. omg.
HAHAHA, i think it's really funny how i get bullied!
LOL.
ytd's psl session was great.
they really participated.
and i felt the inside of me swell.
when they were playing the stand on the chair, cannot talk and have to arrange themselves acc to birthday.
(p.s. that was very bad english but ah, heck.)
i told htem to cheer and i'll come only when i hear them.
you know how biiiig the hall is.
i heard them!
out of the noise and all.
AH.
i love one six grp three (((:
they did a great job untangling themselves too.
AMAZING.
and today!
AH.
i came into the dance studio!
HI ONE SIX! GROUP THREE! hiiiii!
and thy're like.
OMG, you know she's so cute.
HAHAHAHAHAA.
i swear i was laughing internally.
SO FUNNYYYYYYY (:
mei ting! HAHAHA, so cute.
mmhmm!
cherades went well. no trouble persuading them to act or anything.the whole of one six cheered really well too.so happy.she picked up a lemon and said--This is ORANGE right?and bit into it.HAHAHA.going on the Learning Journey tmr !cant wait.i anticipate good response from grp 3.YEA.(((:i pray it doesnt rain.ANYWAYS!.AH AH AH.O level coursework themes and VAT questions wil be out on MONDAY.this monday !HAPPPPPY (:lunch today!HAHAHA, with amanda (: ahem.yeah, school was good, though i was tired.lunch was good (:<333
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8:04 PM
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
VERY IMPORTANT! I havent printed one of the physics papers from Lead.if anyone has it saved in their comp, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE tell me ASAP!THANKS.p.s. Lead can't be accessed anymore. (whoops. sad for the people more prone to procrastination. NB: like ME.)
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5:47 PM
it's year 2007! (:
i'll be sixteen!
O levels!
ART (:
HAHA, i'm feeling very optimistic now.
this year's prolly going to be one of the most memorable ones.
i heard 4/3's got mr teh as form teacher.
OOOOH.
ah.
i've still got Buttons stuck in my head!
SHUCKS.
i needa go practise differentiation.
mmhmmmm.
last night was a late night.
i woke up quite a few times.
yeaaa.
HAHA.
had Subway for lunch today!
HMM what happened YESTERDAY.
new year's day!
grandma's house for lunch. COUSINS!
AHA, we're always retarded when we're tallking.
LOL.
then we were telling ghost stories.
scary.
TAN !
omggg.
my aunt told me they're loadsa restless beings at Eusoff hall.
OMGGG.
i didnt know.
anyways, i'm not the ghost seeing or scared of ghosts kind.
i think i'll be more scared if i see a cockroach or smth.
anyways!
yeah.
SCHOOL tmr!
i'm quite looking forward to it.
HAHA, havent seen the clique since a month ago!
yea!
(:
21 more days !
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5:28 PM
