sprinkled in glitter.
2:07 PM


I went to a party, And remembered what you said.
You told me not to drink, Mum
So I had a sprite instead.
I felt proud of myself, The way you said I would,
That I didn't drink and drive,
Though some friends said I should.
I made a healthy choice, And your advice to me was right.

The party finally ended,
And the kids drove out of sight.
I got into my car,
Sure to get home in one piece,
I never knew what was coming, Mum
Something I expected least.
Now I'm lying on the pavement,
And I hear the policeman say,
The kid that caused this wreck was drunk.
Mum, his voice seems far away,
My own blood's all around me,
As I try hard not to cry.
I can hear the paramedic say,
This girl is going to die.
I'm sure the guy had no idea,
While he was flying high,
Because he chose to drink and drive,
Now I would have to die.

So why do people do it, Mum
Knowing that it ruins lives?
And now the pain is cutting me,
Like a hundred stabbing knives.
Tell sister not to be afraid, Mum
Tell daddy to be brave,
And when I go to heaven,
Put "Daddy's Girl" on my grave.
Someone should have taught him,
That it's wrong to drink and drive.
Maybe if his parents had, I'd still be alive.

My breath is getting shorter, Mum
I'm getting really scared.
These are my final moments,
And I'm so unprepared.
I wish that you could hold me Mum,
As I lie here and die.
I wish that I could say, "I love you, Mum!"
So I love you and good-bye.

i need to go to the library man. yup. anyways. i've been THINKING.
people here and there, once in awhile, tell me TO change.
but i think to myself. WHY.
one person's proud, is another person's OKAY.
so who's gonna be the ultimate person with the right to JUDGE what's proud and whats not proud.
well. i'll tell you who. GOD.
only GOD.
so yea. that speaks for itself.
and sorry to burst your bubble.
but NO ONE CAN PLAY GOD.
and yea. i've said it once, i'll say it again.
i'm not gonna change for just four people.
four people whom i dont even know! SHEESH la.
okay fine, i knew you for how long? THREE MONTHS, tsk.
i'm supposed to believe their judgement because . . .. . ?
give me a GOOD reason and i'll think about it. but till then --
afterall.
Is it not for our imperfections that make us unique?

anyways.
went to chomp chomp last night for dinner! met Aunty Cindy and Cherese, they came down from KL. Cherese is the CUTEST ever! haha. i had to take her for a walk while the adults were eating, and i carried her, and she's like pointing at the sbs buses at the circle and all. and plucking leaves to tickle Zachary's face. SO CUTE. then we went to Pohpoh's house,then walked to uncle steven's house. on the way there. EW. there was a BIG COCKROACH. so i ran further up. then my sis was like, there's a cockroach and your arm! so i SCREAMED. flicked smth imaginary off my arm, and yea. screamed SO LOUDLY. and So happened, the house i was walking past had a BIG dog. so it started BARKING AND BARKING, giving me such a shock la. and further up. there was this other house with like 4 pomeranians. sorry la, but i just dislike small yappy dogs.YEA.


ME carrying cherese! she likes it when i carry her! :D

i shall end off with a few random facts.

• Looking at clothes and stuff on the Topshop webbie is SO FUN.there's this thing. that makes the stuff slide so smoothly across the screen. you can help but think-WAH.
• i miss CAP!and Brendan in the glittery purple wig, making all of the sickies laugh in the OPS room. haha. oh.and david and his papaya picking.HAHA.and telling me that laughter s the best medicine. and giving postcards! yup. and Judith telling me abt her AEP days. HEE.I MISS it!
• random stuff at ME.haha.
• - I can eat Long John's every single day and never get sick of it.
• -i have the adidas ad poster, but no space to put it up. sheesh.
• -i'm gonna go blog hop to find out who those idiots were, LATER.
• oh yea. i'm PHONELESS for awhile now. SO YEA. sorry if i dont reply your smses. i mean, i dont even have my phone.. yea.

Again, the kingdom of heaven is like unto a merchant man, seeking goodly pearls; Who, when he had found one pearl of great price, went and sold all that he had, and bought it.

whoosh. i found this. EMO exists as a dictionary word. COOL.

Emo (slang)
From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Caricature of stereotypical emo dress.Emo (from emotional) is a slang term used to describe a range of fashion styles and attitudes somewhat affiliated with emo music and its related scenes. The word "emo" may be used as a noun to describe a member of the emo scene, as an adjective to describe a certain style of fashion or music, or even to describe a state of feeling unhappiness, loneliness, depression or melancholy (to feel "emo").

Origins
Main article: Emo (music)
For more than a decade, the term emo was used almost exclusively to describe the genre of music that spawned from the 1980s DC scene and all of the bands inspired by it. However, during the late 1990s, as emo music began to emerge from the underground into popular consciousness, the term began to be used as a reference for more than just the music.

The origin of the word emo itself is unclear. In a 1985 interview by Rites of Spring in Flipside Magazine, members of the band noted that some of their fans in DC were starting to call them "emo", arguably because of the state of emotion that the band displayed during their shows. In later years, the word emo was viewed as a contraction of "emotional hardcore" or "emocore", which was the popular designation of the music genre. (One contingent of the scene insists that emo is a contraction for "emotive hardcore". However, no primary source has been found to confirm use of that term prior to the mid-1990s.)

In recent years, as its use has come to define more than just the music, the word emo has more often been viewed as simply being short for "emotional".

2000s
Bands like Dashboard Confessional began to popularize a more dramatic and personal style of "emo", which utilized lyrics that had a far greater appeal amongst teenagers experiencing life and love for the first time. As the lyrical content shifted and as the sound began to enter the mainstream, the term "emo" started to be used more often to describe what was perceived by those outside the scene as the overwrought melodrama of the music. The perception was that melodrama was simply an invention, an effort to display despression or dysfunction where it didn't actually exist. Popular comments such as "don't be so emo" and "cheer up, emo kid" drove home the belief among deriders that fans of emo music took themselves too seriously.

As major labels began pushing more bands under the "emo" umbrella, varying styles of music and dress began to be lumped in as well. The style of bands like My Chemical Romance, including their use of makeup (particularly black eyeliner) and longish hair covering the face, began to be associated with "emo".

Fashion and culture
There are two popular forms of dress associated with emo. The first is essentially what came out of the 90s "indie emo" scene, and has connections to indie rock and punk rock. It includes more vintage and thrift store clothing, typically for a well-worn look. Some of the clothing leans toward khaki colors. T-shirts are typically of smaller sizes and with random prints, often images from the 1980s. Bags and backpacks often have pins and patches of various bands.

The other popular style of dress focuses on darker colors. Commonly seen elements include dark colored hair, dyed either black, red, multi-colored (brown and black, red and purple, etc.), or an unnatural dark hue, males wearing pants tailored for females, lip, eyebrow, and labret piercings, and dark make-up on males and females (most notably black eyeliner, although red eyeshadow is becoming increasingly popular). A common accessory for both males and females are glasses with a dark coloured (usually black), thick rim, a style sometimes even worn by persons who do not require corrective eye-wear.

Converse All-Star style shoes are common amongst both styles of dress, as are Vans shoes.

Though the original emo scenes were not exclusionary, the modern "emo" scene has developed into a "gay friendly" scene. Though it's unclear whether it's related to the diminished "macho" elements of emo music or the "gay friendly" nature of the scene, it has become commonplace for detractors to use "emo" in combination with popular discriminatory gay slurs, such as "emo fag".

While "emo" is often used to describe the dress and attitudes of fans of emo music, it should be noted that "emo" as a musical genre and "emo" as a slang term are largely separate. "Emo" as a musical genre long pre-dated the use of "emo" as a slang term. At the same time, most current bands labeled "emo" are done so unwillingly, and largely because they share some of the fashion trends and attitude associated with "emo" as a slang term.

There is also a common stereotype that associates "emo" with self-harm, most notably cutting wrists, arms, legs, etc., possibly due to song lyrics associated with so-called "emo" bands, which often speak of acts of self-destruction. However, apart from the anecdotal, there is no significant evidence of any correlation between emo and self-harm.

Alternative uses
The term "emo" has also been used in recent years on the Internet as a form of derogatory insult, especially toward those who appear emotionally unstable, or those who talk about issues in their lives to people in public forums or chat rooms. Similar to popular curses, it tends to be used as a general insult even when it is not directly applicable. Phrases such as "cheer up, emo kid" are used frequently as a quick brush-off in this context. Some use the term "emo" to describe a feeling of depression, harking back to the association of depression with the Emo subculture.